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I'm in a better mood today. Sometimes I have trouble admitting I'm sad, but that's totally how I was last night. Although I think it was good for me. Not that the 2 friendships are associated right now really, but after this debacle I got to thinking and I'm gonna at least try to salvage one of them. It's so easy to say you're not the kind of person who holds grudges, but not so easy to act on that phrase.
To be honest I feel fine about the debacle (except for the instant sadness that goes along with not being with a friend). But I feel like an ass about the other friendship. Honestly, my feelings were hurt, and having the power to say "fuck it" really helped me feel better about myself, but it didn't really do anything for anyone.
I actually forgot that being together is more important than a single situation. I'm sorry for being a little emotional bitch. And I'm sorry to those I didn't try and resolve things with before.
I thought I worked a double, but it turns out only day shift. How about that.
I just don't have the energy anymore to do anything but be open and honest with myself and others (for the most part). It's funny, the less scared I am about being honest with others, the more I get myself in trouble. So I could either be less tense and a troublemaker or really tense and social.
Would you please fucking call me or come over and talk with me before I have to admit that I'm sad again?
To be honest I feel fine about the debacle (except for the instant sadness that goes along with not being with a friend). But I feel like an ass about the other friendship. Honestly, my feelings were hurt, and having the power to say "fuck it" really helped me feel better about myself, but it didn't really do anything for anyone.
I actually forgot that being together is more important than a single situation. I'm sorry for being a little emotional bitch. And I'm sorry to those I didn't try and resolve things with before.
I thought I worked a double, but it turns out only day shift. How about that.
I just don't have the energy anymore to do anything but be open and honest with myself and others (for the most part). It's funny, the less scared I am about being honest with others, the more I get myself in trouble. So I could either be less tense and a troublemaker or really tense and social.
Would you please fucking call me or come over and talk with me before I have to admit that I'm sad again?