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17th is closing in and im all in excitement for her arrival back. You want to know something...something is nagging me for some strange reason. I mean a woman who loves me as much as she does and is willign to marry me. Someone who will not cheat or lie to me or even keep secrets from me. Someone who wont bad mouth me behind my back and all that shit....sounds too good to be true doesnt it. Dont get me wrong im loving every minute of it. All these things can be grounds for seperation, especially cheating. If she did anything else on that list, yes i would be very hurt that she would do such things, but it wont end it. I have this feeling her mother doesnt like me and is trying to get her to break up with me and with someone else. My mother on the other hand just cant seem to stop asking questions. WE have alot planned...leave it at that. WHen it happens ull be the first to know. Mother said she has this "feeling" that Sparkle isnt happy with me/the apartment/ relationship (take a pick). If she wasnt happy with me that would crush 1 of the list up top...the lieing cause she says she is very happy with me (which im all cheese about hehe). The apartment....i too am not happy with it, but things will change soon and it will be fine. And if its the relationship...then she would have to tell me cause i keep doing whatever it is im doing that she isnt happy with the relationship i wouldnt think there was anything wrong with it. On my end of everything...im happy as hell. I have a job that has great hours (Monday - thursday 6:30a-3:30p and Friday 6:30a - 12:30p 12:31p friday til monday 6:30a off) money could be better but what im doing its great cause not only can i wear shorts but i can bring drinks and use my walkman while im working. Got a place i can call my own. If i wanted to walk around the apartment naked i can and no one can say anything to me. I have a great fiance that hasnt cheated on me, lied to me, or even bad mouthed me after 6 months (actual relationship) and over 1 year (actually known). Apartment will be dealt with...no further info due to people reading this. Im happy as hell. Yes im going to try and smile more cause ive been getting complaints that i dont smile that much. Look at it this way, when i do smile cherish it and know from where it came from. I smile more for Sparkle that anyone else. She is like the only person that i can think about and it would bringa smile to my face. God i miss her being here. I got to check my balance so i can see if i can set something up for her arrival. Nothing big just soemthing for US. She needs to tell me when she is arriving. Since the 17th is a monday hopefully its after i get off of work. She said she is going to get a job when she comes back. Which would help me out greatly bills wise and we can save for "something" Ok im rambling, no one likes it when i ramble on and on and on and on....1 more thing before i go! SPARKLE I LOVE YOU BABY GIRL!!!!! Girl u know its true...ooh ooh ohh.... i love you (ew im quoting Milli Vanilli or how ever u spell their names) God if im quoting their lines i must be strange. Anyway, Sparkle i love you!!! If anyone has any questions or comments, since i cant get to my posts, call me or IM me (im always on...AOL, Yahoo, MSN).