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Hello all how is everyone doing tonight. I would be talking with Sparkle but she has some pains is laying down resting (i think i dunno). How im feeling? Well im actually really depressed. Looked at 2 apartments today and im not at all worry about getting them since like 7 people are in line for them AND the apartment wont be done for about a month. Im depressed for 2 reasons: 1. Monday came and went and no luck on apartment, and 2. the voice Sparkle makes when i tell her about my luck with the apartment. It hurts to hear that cause i know she wants to come down badly and its up to me to do that. Im doing what i can to get the apartment by this weekend so that she can come down. I dont want to spend another week without her here. And since my parents wont allow her to come down to stay til i get an apartment...which in my opinion her here already will make finding an apartment ALOT easier, plus our sanities will be alot better and it wont be for that long anyway. Asked mother about bringing her down here and she told me to ask my father. So at dinner i asked again and mother switched it around and basically changing her mind by saying "why, cause her here she would have to be moving twice" Mother I dont think that will be much of a problem. I want to see her, like last week. She needs to come down cause im starting to feel the distancewe have. The monthly visist time is about passed and im getting really depressed. I dunno. And to top it all off PJCC drama keeps bothering us. Whats this shit about Tara telling people that i still love her. Thats bs. She had her chance and blew it. I stopped feeling anything for her the second she broke up with me for the 5th and final time. We did end it on friends terms but if she wants to pull this shit forget it. Im happy where im at and with whome (sp? im tired dont mind me) im with. Im extremely happy that im getting married to someone i love greatly. Nothing and no one can change that. K better go before i start to ramble and get annoyed at pjcc people. Love ya baby girl. Hope to see u soon. *mwahs*