God I feel Shitty

[slickbmx]

Man, I never EVER thought I would be the person to cheat on someone ( I think thats what I did anyways) I think I really messed things up and I did not think that it would go down like that. I fucked up BIG time and I don't know if there is anything I can do about it except say I regret it and that I am REALLY REALLY TRUELY SORRY.I would do ANYTHING for him to forgive me. I know he will never forget. I would do anything to take it back but I can't. I know now why I never got drunk before. (Because shit like this happens)I can't even remember how the hell it all started. Gosh I'm dumb. Why do I have to like him so much WHY???? Gosh if I was falling in love with him I picked a shitty time to start fucking things up. I just hope he can forgive me like I have so many times before for him. I know lieing about doing something you said you would'nt is not the same as cheating but come on I was really shit faced. I could barely walk. God please give me the strength to go and talk to him and please give him the will to forgive me. I would do so much make him happy. I guess I find out if love does hurt. All I want to know is why did I have to fall so hard for him?

~Heather
I am already starting to make myself sick over it all. Gosh if my words don't work maybe how my body is acting will show him how bad I feel.