So Confused
So this last like two weeks have been interesting. The monday before last I went and had my trucks brakes worked on and had to bum a ride from Bryan which was so not what I thought was going to happen, my truck was in there for three well two days since it did not get worked on that first day but I was with out truck for three days. Any way he was being a jerk first he did not want me to stay at my house since he thinks it is boring but we so the same things over here that we do over there probably more because his mom and stepdad are over there and just me and my bro over here. Anyway when ever I stay over there I have to leave before his step dad get back home from work which is like 8 in the morning. I deal with that for a few days then I finally get my truck done. But since my truck his been drivin to hell and back like five times its kind of have some issues. So after fighting with Bryan once again over something stupid my truck broke down again. So back to the shop it goes, and again I am with out a car. So later on that night Bryan was going to drive me home and I needed to be home at 8 since my dad can only call once in a while since he is across the inlet. But bryan did not want to leave his friends house because well he wanted to get high like usual, oh and he said that my problems are not his problems. So to put it short after an hour and a half of fighting he finally took me home. Mind you I have been giving him gas, 50 dollars to be exact, and we only went to my house three times. Any way i got my truck back again but then fate turned and hit bryan and his truck broke down and for the last three days I was his ride or he drove my truck to school while I was at work. Anyway he had my truck at his fingers for the last three days. So yesterday after it gets fixed he gets his pay check and cashs it and hands me one dollar and says there some money for the propane tank you bought ( for a torch ) and that all. I put 74 dollars worth of gas in that truck and its all gone now and I got to stay at my house once when he was here. He is not even going to pay me back and the first thing he said was lets go to mike's his stupid weed guy you know what I seriously hope he gets caught I really do nothing else seems to be working and he does not care. I broke up with him finally and I am glad I don't need this any more in my life it's so dumb all he wants to do is get high he does not want to go to school and does not want to be with me and he keeps saying you should like me for who I am what a stupid pot head who wastes every cent of his moeny and his parents money on weed. He has changed so much from when we were little kids. Now I know that I should have just left it as friends. I guess it was my mistake to take it that far and to think that he would change. When I was kind of seeing adrean he did not do it around me and did not ask me to to it and neither did jeremiah. What is my freaking problem why can't i just get someone who is fine with not being high I mean come on it not that cool and if you think of what it is really doing to your body you would think twice about doing it. Nothing is worth giving up what you believe in and I guess I see that now. I wish I could say that I was the same as I was on my last birthday but I'm not and it's kind of sad and then I guess it's part of growing up you make mistakes but you have to learn from them and get better not just keep doing them over and over again other wise it's pointless. I guess I am through ranting lol like always. Well I guess I'll talk later.
~Heather
~Heather