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Thursday was pretty out, a little chilly but nice all the same. I stared to feel better then, the stress of my sister started to fade. Still be feeling progressively better since. My moms still being giving me alot of shit, bringing me down here and there. And then Friday in a group of friends I kinda let it all get to me, little stupid shit that normally dosnt...all just cuz of the week. But Saturday was restful, the frist time Ive woken up from sleep and actually felt rested and well. Then a nice evening followed, good food, a crazy sadistic cop, and the most painful sledding ever. But I did finally get to go late night sledding, which Ive been trying to do with someone for something like three years now. I still have horrible ulgy brusis all over my body, and of course that just makes it all the better. Sunday was a good day at work, I still dont understand why that place and influence my mood so greatly, but it does all the same. Then yesterday was a nice little trip that turned out mildly profitable. And when I got to class (surprisingly) on time this morning I smiled in the frigid wind finally feel significantly better. My sister was ok and the stress and all that it was influencing was faded enough for me take a deep breath and smile.
My sisters back in the hospital this afternoon. After I got significantly upset I took a deep breath and laughed. Way to fucking go. Im worried of course, but I cant let it get to me like it did last week, I just got a handle on it all again. And the sun is shinning and it (looks) so pretty out. Im anxious for good weather, heh, but then of course then Ill be anxious for some dry ground. Now Im gonna go take a long shower with music on probably waay too loudly, do some class work, and maybe go out for coffee with a friend. Thursday and Friday I have day shifts for a change so Im looking forward to plans already made on both nights. Ill keep busy, and with my philosophy paper that shouldnt be too hard to do. Im such a mix of emotions right now but I felt so god damn good this morning that Im refusing to let them get out of control.
My sisters back in the hospital this afternoon. After I got significantly upset I took a deep breath and laughed. Way to fucking go. Im worried of course, but I cant let it get to me like it did last week, I just got a handle on it all again. And the sun is shinning and it (looks) so pretty out. Im anxious for good weather, heh, but then of course then Ill be anxious for some dry ground. Now Im gonna go take a long shower with music on probably waay too loudly, do some class work, and maybe go out for coffee with a friend. Thursday and Friday I have day shifts for a change so Im looking forward to plans already made on both nights. Ill keep busy, and with my philosophy paper that shouldnt be too hard to do. Im such a mix of emotions right now but I felt so god damn good this morning that Im refusing to let them get out of control.