A small update
I have been completely immersed in work. I wake up to go to work and sleep to have enough energy to get to work the next day. I get so worked up about work that all my contemplations are funneled into how I can solve problems at work. I have come to understand that working so intently has no purpose. And now, when I sit down to write I find distractions away from writing. Consequently, I haven't done any real thinking for more than a year and a half. This sounds pretty bad now that I'm putting it in words. I'm not quite a person right now and I'm not sure where I have gone. I am worried about the direction I am headed and do not know how to correct it.