Oct 26, 2009 17:58
I received a text from poldo one time that made me think that "why indeed can I handle those kinds of situations without breaking a sweat?"
We were discussing the issues we had among peers and workmates. and the question came up as to how I can handle awkward situations between myself and another person.
It happened ten years ago.
I had a best friend. We became friends because we were to outsiders in the school where fashion and boys were in and we were just happy catching grasshoppers in the field and singing nonsense songs at the top of our voices. She was the first true friend I had and I was happy that we met.
But for reason I do not know until now, come high school she stayed away. I will admit that I am a bit clingy to people so her absence made me wonder if I did anything wrong, someone please tell me so I can fix it.
Nobody did.
And now that I'm older, I realize that I didn't do anything wrong then. There was just something off there that nobody could explain.
What ticked me off that the fact that she stayed away from me, yet she would talk to my close circle of friends and skip me as if I was the bug on the table that is to be simply ignored and brushed off. I hated her ignorance, but my friends, wonderful people that they are, acknowledged my presence and made her feel that there is still someone who cares that I exist.
A lot of things happened between her and me, one being I told her to shut up during art club and she called me a bitch, and how people would tell her off when she butts into my conversation with other friends. That's when I knew that there's no pleasing her and if she wants to be that way then fine. You and I no longer have a friendship.
So when he asked as to how I can handle being in the same room as W, considering there were a lot of emotional baggages hanging in the air, I remember that old friend of mine and credit her 'relationship' for this strength of showing the world that hey, I can be just fine hanging out with you around. The question is: are you?
I do the same thing with other friends. Friends who seem to forget that you were friends when they make the people around you feel that you're under them when in fact you're equal and accomplish just the same amount of things considering I have a path whereas said friends seems to be still searching. I have a lot to say, but I don't say it. Let karma be your death.
There are different people in this world. Dealing with them is just one of those things you have to do.
time to think