all i've gone is insane
friends are dumb. especially when they start ignoring me because they get a boyfriend. a really ugly, old, balding boyfriend. maybe i'm just jealous because i spend all my time waiting to hear from james, even though i KNOW nothing will ever happen between us, considering i found out his best friend hates me, so they'd just be weird. plus yesterday he was being a mother fucker when we were text messaging eachother, yet he was fine at work.... i don't understand boys. whatever, thats not the point. shellbey starts dating some shmuck, and totally ditches me all the time now. she's too busy with her faggot, and all his friends, and she doesn't bother inviting me along, always telling me she has plans, they she says she has no money for my christmas present since she spent so much money on him. what the fuck! i spent money on james, both my parents, and her! plus i managed to pay to get my hair done, which i hate, so i'm just re-dying and re-cutting soon, myself. blah. it just pisses me off.
after finding out all that, i find out james' best friend dislikes me. then i find out beautiful nothing is playing a show around my birthday, and once again in february, so i obviously can't go to that, since his best friend will be there, and he'll probably just ignore me. and i'll just be really lame. and it'll just suck. and UGH! too many stupid thoughts going through my head right now, i can't take it.
my hair is going to go back to black soon. thank god.
after finding out all that, i find out james' best friend dislikes me. then i find out beautiful nothing is playing a show around my birthday, and once again in february, so i obviously can't go to that, since his best friend will be there, and he'll probably just ignore me. and i'll just be really lame. and it'll just suck. and UGH! too many stupid thoughts going through my head right now, i can't take it.
my hair is going to go back to black soon. thank god.