i'm haven't grown to hate you.... i've just grown to forget you
it's pretty fucking lame how mother fucking stupid my bloody friends are. today my lovely marc was sitting by himself going through a guitar magazine infront of his locker, usually when i get to school earlier -if my mom drives me- i sit with him because we enjoy being losers together. plus i rarely get to spend any time with him, since he's busy with his shit, and i'm busy with mine. plus standing out in the freezing cold isn't exactly what i call...exciting. so i was really pleased to finally get a chance to sit with him, so friend A & friend B come upstairs with me to throw my shit in my locker, and i immediately make a point of telling them i'm going to spend time with marc instead of sitting at friend A's locker. they nodded in agreement, and we walked back downstairs, i seperated to sit beside marc, they keep walking. so marc and i giggle and go through this guitar magazine, i bothered him about the half naked ladies and he was all "they're ugly" and i was all "besides, i'm the only girl for you" and he's all "damn straight". then we talked about how he really hurt his head, and how is school shit was going, and talked about different bands, and guitarists, and guitar riffs, and how he reads magazines from the back to the front, which i didn't really understand. friend B comes and sits beside us, so marc and i sort of just went quiet, then friend A sits beside friend B and then i gave friend A the finger in a joking way when she was standing against a locker, and marc was all "who ya giving the finger to" and i was all..."that girl" why would i say friend A's real name, he wouldnt' know who the hell that is, then friend A gets offended, grabs friend B and they leave. i go to english to find out friend A told everyone she was pissed at me for being rude, and how i always yell at her and all this lame mother fucking shit that REALLY pissed me off, so i comfronted her about her bullshit, and she was all "you love too many guys" i fucking flipped! how does sitting with marc reading a guitar magazine mean i'm inlove with so many people? i have very strong feelings for james, who i will NEVER have a chance with, and yes, marc is a fucking studddd, and he's uber-wicked, but he's more of the best friend i'd like to have meaningless sex with. haha. plus i know james' is a snuggler. yar! speaking of.... christmas party tonnight. it's going to be lame, but a good reason to get bitched. first i have to study for a math test. *ugh* plus yesterday i got a phonecall home saying i missed period one, so today i wanted to get a note from mr noack for my parents who don't believe that i was actually there. he wasn't there, so i told my dad. now he says i'm a liar, and i'm grounded. what the fuck? i hate my fucking idiotic family. fucking morons. *UGH* i'm going to go cry in my mother fucking room. fuck this shit.