hm.

[sleepyrobot]

things are pretty doofy of late, i mean, im feeling stuck stuck stuck so unproductive which, well its frustrating, because there is a lot of producing i want to be doing, lots of things running around in my head that need some attention and action. im also dealing lately with a pretty serious case of feeling lonely, despite not being alone, if that makes any sense. it feels, i dont know. stupid for the most part but also just really dismal or isolated. thinks feel bleak. all of this is aggravated i guess also by feeling sort of out of touch or distant from close friends who arent as close as they sometimes are, in some cases because of the coincidence of schedules and energy and location, and in some cases whatever it is thats going on with other people that makes me feel rejected or not important enough or something. my own fault im sure, she tends to expect too much of people this one does.
eh. at any rate im feeling shifts beneath my feet and im pretty sure they will make more sense to me soon, but the waiting and trying to work towards that is disheartening/