"Somewhere in the black mining hills of South Dakota..."
I'm in Pixy's right now. But she's not here. She had to run out to uy Raising Arizona. Because it's missing. I have no idea who's driving her or whatnot, but she told me to stay here. So now I feel awkward because her apartmentmates are here, and me. It feels weird. So I've holed myself in her room. Funny thing is we talked about how I feel weird about being in her partment when she's not here - lilke when she has to go out and rab laundry. And the on.y other eople here are the apartment mates and their friends.
Anywho. Here I am. Listening to Picy's music. And yeah. My back hurts. I wake up in the morning with a headache and fazll asleep with one. It was suggessted I get a good nigth's sleep - and I try, but sometimes you just can't you know?
Last night was fun. I hung out with the usual people - Pixy, Ari, Kay. Helped Karl make his bulletin board about stress relief. Played a cool mind fuck on anyone reading it - one of the words is "AWAY" I made the "AWY" a dark blue. And the 2nd A is a light turquoise type blue. SO the eye will be naturally drawn to this free standing colored letter, but when they try to read the word - and they'll be able to mind you - their eyes will percieve the dark blue colors as a group, and push the light blue into another group. Then they'll be like "Oh, away"
Yeah, it's obnoxious indeed.
Then watched some Kare Kano with Ari and Kay and Karl. Went Pixy's for dinner, figured out some food sutffage.
Oh yeah. I got to talk to my mom. It was nince to talk to her. I hate to admit I'd been feeling a bit homesick.
So, here's the news. Dad's going crazy cause he's going jobless soon - this is like his last week there and then the theater is closed until they bring in the new show. So he's gonna' go stir crazy and be very tight with money since he's not gonna' be gettin' much except from unemployment or the occaisnal times when he can work another show (if a manager goes on vacation he can cover and get monies). Other than that he's jsut going to always be home. So I have to be on uber-good behavior when I go home. I also need a job badly. Mom's job has gotten insane lately. So she's tressed and the only one pulling in any real money.And Jay is jobless as far as I know and I know he's goping to classes and probably not doing much. So he's probably going insane too.
And so I'm uber stressed too. And I wish I could be home to releive some of the pressure there. Right now all the yelling and tension is really being directed towards Jay. Someone needs to be there to help take the heat off - I guess that was my place at home. I hate being yelled at and all, but I dunno how the house can stay togehter if everyone' been acting the way they ahve. I know mt dad's temper is long and he won't yell right away, but I know he's going to get to that point. My mom has my grandfather's temper so it's quick and feirce and a lot of yelling involved, and then feeiing better. My brother I think has granpa's temper too. No one left in that house takes any amount of yelling. I'm the one that just absorbs it all. So. Christ. I need to be there.
So. It's safe to say I'm stressed a bit, and worried. My family has never spent this much time around eachother involuntarily.
Trying much to not dwell on it.
Anywho. Here I am. Listening to Picy's music. And yeah. My back hurts. I wake up in the morning with a headache and fazll asleep with one. It was suggessted I get a good nigth's sleep - and I try, but sometimes you just can't you know?
Last night was fun. I hung out with the usual people - Pixy, Ari, Kay. Helped Karl make his bulletin board about stress relief. Played a cool mind fuck on anyone reading it - one of the words is "AWAY" I made the "AWY" a dark blue. And the 2nd A is a light turquoise type blue. SO the eye will be naturally drawn to this free standing colored letter, but when they try to read the word - and they'll be able to mind you - their eyes will percieve the dark blue colors as a group, and push the light blue into another group. Then they'll be like "Oh, away"
Yeah, it's obnoxious indeed.
Then watched some Kare Kano with Ari and Kay and Karl. Went Pixy's for dinner, figured out some food sutffage.
Oh yeah. I got to talk to my mom. It was nince to talk to her. I hate to admit I'd been feeling a bit homesick.
So, here's the news. Dad's going crazy cause he's going jobless soon - this is like his last week there and then the theater is closed until they bring in the new show. So he's gonna' go stir crazy and be very tight with money since he's not gonna' be gettin' much except from unemployment or the occaisnal times when he can work another show (if a manager goes on vacation he can cover and get monies). Other than that he's jsut going to always be home. So I have to be on uber-good behavior when I go home. I also need a job badly. Mom's job has gotten insane lately. So she's tressed and the only one pulling in any real money.And Jay is jobless as far as I know and I know he's goping to classes and probably not doing much. So he's probably going insane too.
And so I'm uber stressed too. And I wish I could be home to releive some of the pressure there. Right now all the yelling and tension is really being directed towards Jay. Someone needs to be there to help take the heat off - I guess that was my place at home. I hate being yelled at and all, but I dunno how the house can stay togehter if everyone' been acting the way they ahve. I know mt dad's temper is long and he won't yell right away, but I know he's going to get to that point. My mom has my grandfather's temper so it's quick and feirce and a lot of yelling involved, and then feeiing better. My brother I think has granpa's temper too. No one left in that house takes any amount of yelling. I'm the one that just absorbs it all. So. Christ. I need to be there.
So. It's safe to say I'm stressed a bit, and worried. My family has never spent this much time around eachother involuntarily.
Trying much to not dwell on it.