yesterday
yesterday was really weird becasue, i went over to camis so i could help out josh with his neopets thing, and he kissed me once and i think he said something like, i will always be there for you and savanna, but then cami walked downstairs. So i dont know i thought he was about to say something else, but i guess i will never know. But im actully glad she walked downstairs when she did, cuz i wanted to see her more then Josh i just got recruited to help him out instead! But i did manage to smack her ass like 3 times before i left, hahahahaha. Ok ill admit thats not that funny, but it was to me. But that video of lori, Josh y, daniel, cami and me was pretty funny, cuz if you werent there you would start to watch that movie and be like who the hell is under the blankets moving around? But i also gave Josh P. the papa roach getting away with murder cd like i know he wanted, so i thought i would be nice to him for once, then Cami had to steal it so she could burn a copy but i dont care, as long as she gives it back im fine, cuz i dont want to have to burn him a whole new copy of it.
But thats really all that happened yesterday, and nothing really happened today, besides my parents fighting. But they have been fighting for like the past week, and the only thing i really want to do is either get out of the house, or turn my music up so loud, and just drown them out! I mean ok, im under enough stress as it is, look im about ready to have a kid,i have finals all next week, and i have like a million other things to do this week! i have to see my regular doc tommorow morning to see if im dialated ne, wednseday, i have to go see a birth corrdinator, thursday i have to see my P.O. friday, i have to go see kyle in court, to see what the hell he gets, i think tommorow night im also going to nikkis gradutation. And my mom still hasnt told me waht else i have to do, she just keeps saying get ready for a very busy week kido! and im all like will you please tell me everything i have to do so i know what im doing? but nope she still wont tell me, then our phone is shut off AGAIN which really sucks! i think were getting eveicted at the end of the month so we HAVE of move before then, but with the money that James makes, i really dont think were going to be able to! cuz he makes like 7 hundred every two weeks and thats really not enought to pay for everything, thats why my phone keeps getting shut off! Then my mom cant work and neither can i, well not until after savanna is born and i get off of bed rest so that wont be until school stars again, and i keep telling james that if i do get a job im going to help out with the bills and shit but he keeps telling me t save my money, and do what i want with it, but thats kinda why i want to get a job in the first place is to pay james back waht he gave me! but i really dont know what were going to do, i mean i try and hide it so much, but with me having this child its really going to cost us alot! thats kinda why i wanted to put her up for adoption, but my mom told me i couldnt, for two reasons, one) its her first grandchild and she would never forgive me and two) because if i gave her up then i would never be able to forgive myself! But with everything its going to cost, i really thinki would get over putting her up, cuz theni know whereever she goes she'll always have someone to look after her and give her what she needs! but im going to stop because ive already started crying so ill talkt oyou all later.
But thats really all that happened yesterday, and nothing really happened today, besides my parents fighting. But they have been fighting for like the past week, and the only thing i really want to do is either get out of the house, or turn my music up so loud, and just drown them out! I mean ok, im under enough stress as it is, look im about ready to have a kid,i have finals all next week, and i have like a million other things to do this week! i have to see my regular doc tommorow morning to see if im dialated ne, wednseday, i have to go see a birth corrdinator, thursday i have to see my P.O. friday, i have to go see kyle in court, to see what the hell he gets, i think tommorow night im also going to nikkis gradutation. And my mom still hasnt told me waht else i have to do, she just keeps saying get ready for a very busy week kido! and im all like will you please tell me everything i have to do so i know what im doing? but nope she still wont tell me, then our phone is shut off AGAIN which really sucks! i think were getting eveicted at the end of the month so we HAVE of move before then, but with the money that James makes, i really dont think were going to be able to! cuz he makes like 7 hundred every two weeks and thats really not enought to pay for everything, thats why my phone keeps getting shut off! Then my mom cant work and neither can i, well not until after savanna is born and i get off of bed rest so that wont be until school stars again, and i keep telling james that if i do get a job im going to help out with the bills and shit but he keeps telling me t save my money, and do what i want with it, but thats kinda why i want to get a job in the first place is to pay james back waht he gave me! but i really dont know what were going to do, i mean i try and hide it so much, but with me having this child its really going to cost us alot! thats kinda why i wanted to put her up for adoption, but my mom told me i couldnt, for two reasons, one) its her first grandchild and she would never forgive me and two) because if i gave her up then i would never be able to forgive myself! But with everything its going to cost, i really thinki would get over putting her up, cuz theni know whereever she goes she'll always have someone to look after her and give her what she needs! but im going to stop because ive already started crying so ill talkt oyou all later.