I give up...
I give up.
I just don't know what to do anymore.
I've tried so many different ways on how to fix things, but they just seem to wanna stay broken.
I feel so alone right now, in this deep pit of dispair and I can't see the light.
It's just sooo hard for me to read ppl and how they feel or what they think, and everyone here has 2 sides to them and I only get to see the side of them that wants to screw me over.
It's getting harder and harder for me to truely be myself, and I keep developing more and more sides of me. Or more like layers, so no one can see the real me. Like a chameleon, always changing to make its surroundings, never seeing its true self.
I don't even know the real me anymore, I'm just lost in a sea of nothingness and it's almost swallowed me whole.
And there are soo many escapses for me to take out there, though they are short-lived. Ways to take away my pain, sadness, grief, sorrow, dispair, anger, and jealousy, and I can't decide which way I should go.
I've given up all hope of finding out who I am, where I belong, if there is EVEN someone out there for me, and if I will truely EVER be loved.
I can't breath anymore, there's no fresh air where I'm at. Only toxic fumes that fill my lungs, making it harder to breath with each breath I take.
I miss me sooo much. I can't remember her anymore, I've forgotten all about her, everything, and now there's nothing left of her.
Do you know who I am?
I just don't know what to do anymore.
I've tried so many different ways on how to fix things, but they just seem to wanna stay broken.
I feel so alone right now, in this deep pit of dispair and I can't see the light.
It's just sooo hard for me to read ppl and how they feel or what they think, and everyone here has 2 sides to them and I only get to see the side of them that wants to screw me over.
It's getting harder and harder for me to truely be myself, and I keep developing more and more sides of me. Or more like layers, so no one can see the real me. Like a chameleon, always changing to make its surroundings, never seeing its true self.
I don't even know the real me anymore, I'm just lost in a sea of nothingness and it's almost swallowed me whole.
And there are soo many escapses for me to take out there, though they are short-lived. Ways to take away my pain, sadness, grief, sorrow, dispair, anger, and jealousy, and I can't decide which way I should go.
I've given up all hope of finding out who I am, where I belong, if there is EVEN someone out there for me, and if I will truely EVER be loved.
I can't breath anymore, there's no fresh air where I'm at. Only toxic fumes that fill my lungs, making it harder to breath with each breath I take.
I miss me sooo much. I can't remember her anymore, I've forgotten all about her, everything, and now there's nothing left of her.
Do you know who I am?