Fuck Valentine's Day
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the mother of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
He broke my heart. He stomped on it and made me feel like I wasn't good enough - not good enough for him. I miss him. I miss being stressed out from homework, then just getting a random phone call from that cute, happy voice, who's always willing to cheer me up. I miss hugging him. I miss holding him. I miss when he holds me from behind and kisses me on the top of my head. I miss sharing my deepest secrets with him and being able to tell him anything I'm feeling. I miss the moments he'd look into my eyes... those precious moments where he'd just stare deeply at me and tell me I'm beautiful. While I have been able to forgive myself for all the times that I took advantage of him, for the reason that I always figured he'd be there and never expected it to end. Even if he broke my heart, I still think he's the most amazing, sweet, adorable, loving, kindest person in the world. While I thank God for putting him in my life for the last year and a half, I still wish everything was okay. Despite all the pain he's caused me these past few weeks, I still love him. I still love everything about him. This whole ordeal has made me realize that I have to hold onto important people very closely. I should never assume that they will always be there and allow myself to treat them unkindly. I just wish I could tell him how I still think he's amazing and all the things I feel inside...but he doesn't want to hear it. So I'll just babble here. The snow reminds me of our first time being snowed in together, where we went sledding down my hill. I miss the way we could act like playful 5 year olds and not care what anyone else thinks of us. I miss him. I miss him. I miss him. I love him.
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the mother of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
He broke my heart. He stomped on it and made me feel like I wasn't good enough - not good enough for him. I miss him. I miss being stressed out from homework, then just getting a random phone call from that cute, happy voice, who's always willing to cheer me up. I miss hugging him. I miss holding him. I miss when he holds me from behind and kisses me on the top of my head. I miss sharing my deepest secrets with him and being able to tell him anything I'm feeling. I miss the moments he'd look into my eyes... those precious moments where he'd just stare deeply at me and tell me I'm beautiful. While I have been able to forgive myself for all the times that I took advantage of him, for the reason that I always figured he'd be there and never expected it to end. Even if he broke my heart, I still think he's the most amazing, sweet, adorable, loving, kindest person in the world. While I thank God for putting him in my life for the last year and a half, I still wish everything was okay. Despite all the pain he's caused me these past few weeks, I still love him. I still love everything about him. This whole ordeal has made me realize that I have to hold onto important people very closely. I should never assume that they will always be there and allow myself to treat them unkindly. I just wish I could tell him how I still think he's amazing and all the things I feel inside...but he doesn't want to hear it. So I'll just babble here. The snow reminds me of our first time being snowed in together, where we went sledding down my hill. I miss the way we could act like playful 5 year olds and not care what anyone else thinks of us. I miss him. I miss him. I miss him. I love him.