i'd scream this song right in your face, if you were here
" i don't see what makes it so easy to get over us..and me "
-me
" you are what makes it easy. "
-her
i only seem to post in this thing like once a year..and strangely enough the last post in here is about being ultimate happy with the girl that's pretty much destroyed me. horrible emotional turmoil brought me to drink constantly for two weeks straight, every single day until i'd just pass out and wait to face the next bleak morning. we still talk as friends and such, and i would lie if i said i was entirely over her, or even if i said if she were to take me back i wouldn't go..but i am slowly becoming comfortable with where i am now. she acts as though she is completely over us and me, but she has moments in her days when she misses what used to be. she's asked me to go to lunch with her on monday..though, i'm not sure what her motivation may be..if there even is any. i'm not even entirely sure if i'm going to join her with how sparatic our communication is. more and more i'm seeing that after i got to know her, she never was the best for me. to be fair to her, i won't list those reasons. i will say that two mornings ago, i sat back and thought about how much less it hurts now and that made me happy just in knowing eventually i will be healed.
i now work for the school district as a computer tech, so that's not so bad. i make 12 dollars an hour, the most i've ever been paid. i basically sit around all day and show teacher's how to access their e-mail, or use the vcr. it's easy, i get paid a lot for how little i work, i love it.
i've recently become friends with a teacher named Cheryl, who i did have a
crush on for awhile..though going along with my current run of luck, she randomly is now engaged @_@ . ha, amazing.
actual development has been taken more seriously than ever in formation of a solid band. i know sing and play guitar in Karma's Back , you should check us out, we have sweet jams already.
i'm hoping to cash my check here from the school soon, and thankfully my car should finally be fixed after hitting that tree today. then it's party time for tonight.
the ultimate sweetness though..
..i will be 21 in like four days.
yay
x Im 0n fir3 x (12:05:39 PM): you should mention how outrageously awesome I am in it
Asleep in Me (12:08:17 PM): Lmfao
x Im 0n fir3 x (12:06:02 PM): ..Ian, the facts in life are not so laughable
x Im 0n fir3 x (12:06:03 PM): ;P
x Im 0n fir3 x (12:06:11 PM): and that is one of them
Asleep in Me (12:09:18 PM): is that so?
x Im 0n fir3 x (12:06:52 PM): absolutely
-me
" you are what makes it easy. "
-her
i only seem to post in this thing like once a year..and strangely enough the last post in here is about being ultimate happy with the girl that's pretty much destroyed me. horrible emotional turmoil brought me to drink constantly for two weeks straight, every single day until i'd just pass out and wait to face the next bleak morning. we still talk as friends and such, and i would lie if i said i was entirely over her, or even if i said if she were to take me back i wouldn't go..but i am slowly becoming comfortable with where i am now. she acts as though she is completely over us and me, but she has moments in her days when she misses what used to be. she's asked me to go to lunch with her on monday..though, i'm not sure what her motivation may be..if there even is any. i'm not even entirely sure if i'm going to join her with how sparatic our communication is. more and more i'm seeing that after i got to know her, she never was the best for me. to be fair to her, i won't list those reasons. i will say that two mornings ago, i sat back and thought about how much less it hurts now and that made me happy just in knowing eventually i will be healed.
i now work for the school district as a computer tech, so that's not so bad. i make 12 dollars an hour, the most i've ever been paid. i basically sit around all day and show teacher's how to access their e-mail, or use the vcr. it's easy, i get paid a lot for how little i work, i love it.
i've recently become friends with a teacher named Cheryl, who i did have a
crush on for awhile..though going along with my current run of luck, she randomly is now engaged @_@ . ha, amazing.
actual development has been taken more seriously than ever in formation of a solid band. i know sing and play guitar in Karma's Back , you should check us out, we have sweet jams already.
i'm hoping to cash my check here from the school soon, and thankfully my car should finally be fixed after hitting that tree today. then it's party time for tonight.
the ultimate sweetness though..
..i will be 21 in like four days.
yay
x Im 0n fir3 x (12:05:39 PM): you should mention how outrageously awesome I am in it
Asleep in Me (12:08:17 PM): Lmfao
x Im 0n fir3 x (12:06:02 PM): ..Ian, the facts in life are not so laughable
x Im 0n fir3 x (12:06:03 PM): ;P
x Im 0n fir3 x (12:06:11 PM): and that is one of them
Asleep in Me (12:09:18 PM): is that so?
x Im 0n fir3 x (12:06:52 PM): absolutely