I can't take anymore.

[sleepwithknives]

I feel compelled to watch. you work.
A wonderous plan of guilty smiles. and a smirk of taste.

I feel capable of destroying. a love I hold dear.
I've lost what's mine. and what's hers is no longer kind.
Please, in sanctuaries (some place safe)
Continue to feed me. and deface the precious gapes.
Where worlds fall in. and angels come out.
I feel capable of enjoying. a love that isn't late.

Among a castle. the walls depend.
On iron bars and prisoners of sin.
God will come. and I will be.
Left alone.

To find myself. In selfishness.
To find my soul. In a shadowed kiss.
To find my eyes. In a brilliant title.

I will write. the last words.
In the last book.
Of our sacrificial cure.

The world will be mine.
But I will be left alone.
The world will be mine.
And I won't know myself.
Until I find a justifying love.

Maybe God can bring. me up.
To heaven. from Hell.

I have open hands. for an open prayer.
Just tell me what you need.
Tell me what to say.
But for now I will abbreviate.

"I am yours"