Three-month process starts...TODAY
I hope you all had a great valentine's day with your sweethearts and for those of us that are single...SOMETHING WILL COME OUR WAY! But Valetine's day is Single Awareness day or whatever, I seen it posted on someone's icon on LJ while I was browsing my friends page last night.
But you read it right, I think I'm finally ready to start my three-month process of healing...because reopening the old wounds won't help and they'll only remain as scars and ledheartastray and my cuz 1979_ were right (along with Tyson and many other people that I've talk with): just gotta let go and find happiness in myself.
Although I was thinking this morning while I was in school, I was thinking to myself, You know, before I got with Brandon, everything seemed like it was falling apart and nothing was going right...then I found happiness when I got Brandon. Then over a time of him and I being together things just started to fall apart and now I'm in search of my happiness...I have to find it in myself.
And by doing so I'm just going to take it one step at a time. That's all it takes.
I know I will find the right spot of where the grass is greener and as the sun shines, life goes on.
*le sigh* u_u
But to keep myself occupied, I'm going to work on my FAFSA and read The Notebook because I'm that hopeless-romantic-sappy-kind-of-person. XD
I haven't gotten an e-mail from him yet but I think I won't expect one from him for a long time...well, maybe a few days or so but other than that, I don't care. He's found his happiness in someone else (yes, he got another girlfriend) and I said in an e-mail last night that I don't want to ruin his happiness and that I'll be fine. Told him to not worry about me and he probably isn't. u_u
Ah, I guess I'll find new love at Grays Harbor College, hopefully it won't be some white boy but if I keep on thinking that...it eventually will be. I'm still in hopes of finding a nice Chehalis Indian boy...and it's not about the pre capita either! XD But that'd be nice. ^^
Well, I guess I could focus on college and not love...
But you read it right, I think I'm finally ready to start my three-month process of healing...because reopening the old wounds won't help and they'll only remain as scars and ledheartastray and my cuz 1979_ were right (along with Tyson and many other people that I've talk with): just gotta let go and find happiness in myself.
Although I was thinking this morning while I was in school, I was thinking to myself, You know, before I got with Brandon, everything seemed like it was falling apart and nothing was going right...then I found happiness when I got Brandon. Then over a time of him and I being together things just started to fall apart and now I'm in search of my happiness...I have to find it in myself.
And by doing so I'm just going to take it one step at a time. That's all it takes.
I know I will find the right spot of where the grass is greener and as the sun shines, life goes on.
*le sigh* u_u
But to keep myself occupied, I'm going to work on my FAFSA and read The Notebook because I'm that hopeless-romantic-sappy-kind-of-person. XD
I haven't gotten an e-mail from him yet but I think I won't expect one from him for a long time...well, maybe a few days or so but other than that, I don't care. He's found his happiness in someone else (yes, he got another girlfriend) and I said in an e-mail last night that I don't want to ruin his happiness and that I'll be fine. Told him to not worry about me and he probably isn't. u_u
Ah, I guess I'll find new love at Grays Harbor College, hopefully it won't be some white boy but if I keep on thinking that...it eventually will be. I'm still in hopes of finding a nice Chehalis Indian boy...and it's not about the pre capita either! XD But that'd be nice. ^^
Well, I guess I could focus on college and not love...