Nov 24, 2005 23:45
i mostly write in my xanga - lookoutforangel
Have you ever just saw your life in pause. I have like everybody around you is going fast foward into their life and my life has been put on pause.
There is times when I think I'm trying to ruin my life, because it's like i don't deserve to be happy. But there is no reason why i should be doing this.
I always feel empty like there is a major part of me missing, and for once it's not about having a boyfriend it something else.
Like most people in this world, i want to change me i want to be somebody else. As long as I'm not me.
I also feel like a quitter, if i start something i can never finish it.
I tend to let myself down alot. Like I'm never good enough. And i will never be.