She said, "I don't know what you're living for, at all"
Ugh.
There are some people in the world who can pull off having an active, productive fandom life and a successful personal life. I'm even privileged to know a few of them (makokitten, I miss you).
I, on the other hand, am pretty incompetent at both.
I mean, I have around 10K words of miscellaneous unfinished fic, and I'm researching transfer opportunities, but those are not enough and they do not excuse the fact that I'm still handling my life choices pretty badly and I need to get better.
Less than a week until Otakon, and I am still struggling to put a halfway decent cosplay together because I am a procrastinator with no sense of scale; a couple days ago I was ready to just give up. It is frustrating the hell out of me. I don't know why I thought it'd be so easy, considering I'm tackling a fairly complex outfit (like, a five or six on the Mohs Scale of Cosplay Hardness) and it is my first time actually assembling anything. Plus, cosplay in general combines several things I am not good at: Color sense, fashion sense, crafting skills, and shoe shopping. (I'm decent at sewing, but you can't exactly sew armor. And acting really has nothing to do with it.) Regardless, as my girlfriend has pointed out, we will no longer be portraying new and shiny characters - there's a fairly good chance there'll be other Amy/Rory cospairs there.
As long as I am whining, my house's air conditioning broke this week - or rather, we thought it broke, then we learned it just isn't capable of handling temperatures this hot (heat index of 110 yesterday, woo). My room is sweltering.
So, in short, I am taking an indefinite hiatus from existence. Logging out, changing password, all that jazz. It is only right.
I might re-appear sometime in August, or in the fall. If not, that is what happened to me. Enjoy the rest of your summers.