Lessons (re)learned
This year is less than a month old, but I've learned (or some to re-learn) that you can't bottle experiences and set them aside. You can't hold tight to things, since like wind, like water, like air, like everything, it will slip out of your fingers before you can try to hold it back.
You have to let go to the ebb and flow of life or be consumed by yourself. The more you try to shut it out, the faster it breaks in and consumes your inner fire.
Despite all of this, I want to keep all the things I love close to me. I don't want them to leave me, because I'm tired of being alone.
It's such a silly feeling to have really, since when I connect/meditate, I feel the connection to everything and everyone. I know my feelings are superficial and based on silly impulses, but I know it's important to validate every aspect of myself, good/bad/light/dark/whatever.
I want just a little part of my everyday life to remain constant so that I can feel stronger facing the tidal wave of change, knowing there is a rock, a shield, something to hold onto.
We don't always get what we want, but for now here's hoping!
xxoo
You have to let go to the ebb and flow of life or be consumed by yourself. The more you try to shut it out, the faster it breaks in and consumes your inner fire.
Despite all of this, I want to keep all the things I love close to me. I don't want them to leave me, because I'm tired of being alone.
It's such a silly feeling to have really, since when I connect/meditate, I feel the connection to everything and everyone. I know my feelings are superficial and based on silly impulses, but I know it's important to validate every aspect of myself, good/bad/light/dark/whatever.
I want just a little part of my everyday life to remain constant so that I can feel stronger facing the tidal wave of change, knowing there is a rock, a shield, something to hold onto.
We don't always get what we want, but for now here's hoping!
xxoo