i miss the way you sing low, so i cant hear your voice over the radio in my car..

[sleepnowmoon]

does he sing to you incessingly from that space between your bed and wall...does he walk around all day at school with his feet inside your shoes...looking down every few steps to pretend he walks with you...or does he know that space below your neck thats your favorite to be touched...and does he cry through broken sentences like i loved you far too much....is he coughing now on a bathroom floor...for every speck of tile theres a thousand more you wont ever see but must hold inside yourself eternally...

it was your hello that kept me hanging on every word...and your goodbye that keeps me listening for your voice around each corner...

today we live with what ifs...and we never know what we have until its taken away from us...a year ago this time...i felt love for the first time...and now...every day have to hurt that person...things worked out in the strangest way...the moment when i finally didnt need her anymore....she needed me...she swears it...but a year ago...id do anything just to savor what we had...but recently...i have found the purest love ive ever known...and it means the world to me...everyday reassures me...everything is good...everything is so amazing if we just take the time...i could just stand there and adore her...but i still feel that pain at the pit of my stomach...thinking of you...and what weve been through...

there a love that transends all that we've known of ourselves