forever and a half

[sleepngismy9to5]

blah its been a while...but for a reason...things are fucked up. love is fucked up. i hate it. i work all the time i wish we had more time together, not that anything would change your still a million miles away...well in your head anyway. im confused i dont know anything anymore. its day in day out... sell speakers and ive been suckin at that lately too. time to pick up where i left off. i need to focus on what i want in life and not on you. but all i really want is you. but ill forget about it. you did. one day though right? thats what they all say. throw in the towel, i did. i had no choice. i cant stop caring but i can stop trying not to care. cuz after all i do. a lot. i miss ernie and brent i wish they were here. or better yet... i wish i was there. soon enough though. i havent given up hope.

now what? where do we go from here? aswnswers would be nice. but i dont get them. i miss 3 words you know what they are. im done trying. time to focus on everything else.

good night