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today was good, i got a job setting up entertainment centers for bars and such, it should be fun. the new alk3/oma split came out and its fuckin rad, its beyond amazing. listening to it made me miss brent a lot though, and now that ernies moving too shit is gonna get crazy. things are happening to fast and the world keeps spinning but i feel like im standing still. i realised its not gonna be long before shit just is completely different, hell it already is and its not much longer till everyone is gone doing there own thing. and its like im always looking for one last hora! one last time for everything but i realised we dont get one. its like im expecting a good bye before things change but im not gonna get one. its gonna be something just all the sudden happens. and honestly im scared, i dont know where ill be or what will happen and all ill have left is pictures of good times and some memories with the brain cells i have left. i dont get it. i never did. and i doubt i ever will. why cant we just have ann arbor, geddes drives, trips to chicago to see the trio and all night sessions at the apartment. or why cant we just go to wednesday night parties at bob-o's. its like i said im waiting for a good bye thats not gonna happen and i feel like i got fucked over. i dont know i cant sleep and thats whats on my mind. growing up...its over rated, but it happens so why fight it? like its been said before...i night never ends if we never go inside...thats how i feel, i never want it to end because inevitibly the end is the end and also a new beginning. i hate it.