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Hooray for lifeguarding!
So, I'm guarding at two Y's right now - in Woburn and in Reading. Between the two I'm working decent hours... if not slightly scattered. That'll keep me on my toes though, I suppose. Hmph.
Now I'm freaking out about double majoring. The head of the piano department at WCC basically took me aside and told me that she wanted me to double major in music ed AND piano performance, because she loved my jury like woah. Taking on a piano perf major involves 24-25 credits in addition to my entire ed degree. In theory, if I took 6 credits' worth of language classes online or over the summer or something, I could pretty easily finish up both majors in 4.5 years. But taking 4.5 years of classes at WCC and then applying to grad school is super daunting, and sounding like a LOT of school. WCC does have the accelerated 5 year program where you come out with a BM in Music Ed and a MM in Education (and ped?), so if I take enough summer/online courses, there's the possibility of me graduating in 5 years with a BM in Music Ed AND Piano performance, and a MM in Education. Woah. Impressive, non? I just don't know if it's possible, because it's SO much extra work, and the ed degree is already considered the "suicide major" although I made it through this semester (which is supposedly the hardest to adjust to) with what will most like end up being a 3.9 GPA.
STRESS
Yikes. So, I REALLY want to do this piano perf thing. I could just take the classes that I want to without fulfilling the degree requirements, but all of the classes that are required are classes that I want to take, and frankly, if I'm going to do all of the extra work, I want something to show for it! Plus, it would force me to give an extra recital, which I think I need if I'm ever going to get over my stage fright. From my auditions and sortof from my jury I've proven to myself that I CAN perform successfully, even if it scares the life out of me... but I want to love it. At the moment even the idea of giving any sort of a performance makes me ridiculously nervous, but I feel like it's something I should love - I really want to love it.
The there's the issue of singing as well. Before this whole piano perf thing came up I was planning on auditioning for a double primary in the fall so that I can have both a piano studio and a voice studio. I don't know if I'll be able to be a double major AND a double primary... but I really want to! Yikes! I'm used to having tons of work, and frankly I'm pretty good at having tons of work - I made it through this entire semester making it to the Y several times (not nearly enough, but some...) and working 10-15 hours a week on campus, plus 19-ish credits (technically only 18 show up on my transcript, but Ed Lab counts as "zero credits" even though it's 1 credit hour plus a 15 hour project every semester, so it's 19. Bah).
Yikes. And there are all of my academic crises all typed up into livejournal. Thoughts?
So, I'm guarding at two Y's right now - in Woburn and in Reading. Between the two I'm working decent hours... if not slightly scattered. That'll keep me on my toes though, I suppose. Hmph.
Now I'm freaking out about double majoring. The head of the piano department at WCC basically took me aside and told me that she wanted me to double major in music ed AND piano performance, because she loved my jury like woah. Taking on a piano perf major involves 24-25 credits in addition to my entire ed degree. In theory, if I took 6 credits' worth of language classes online or over the summer or something, I could pretty easily finish up both majors in 4.5 years. But taking 4.5 years of classes at WCC and then applying to grad school is super daunting, and sounding like a LOT of school. WCC does have the accelerated 5 year program where you come out with a BM in Music Ed and a MM in Education (and ped?), so if I take enough summer/online courses, there's the possibility of me graduating in 5 years with a BM in Music Ed AND Piano performance, and a MM in Education. Woah. Impressive, non? I just don't know if it's possible, because it's SO much extra work, and the ed degree is already considered the "suicide major" although I made it through this semester (which is supposedly the hardest to adjust to) with what will most like end up being a 3.9 GPA.
STRESS
Yikes. So, I REALLY want to do this piano perf thing. I could just take the classes that I want to without fulfilling the degree requirements, but all of the classes that are required are classes that I want to take, and frankly, if I'm going to do all of the extra work, I want something to show for it! Plus, it would force me to give an extra recital, which I think I need if I'm ever going to get over my stage fright. From my auditions and sortof from my jury I've proven to myself that I CAN perform successfully, even if it scares the life out of me... but I want to love it. At the moment even the idea of giving any sort of a performance makes me ridiculously nervous, but I feel like it's something I should love - I really want to love it.
The there's the issue of singing as well. Before this whole piano perf thing came up I was planning on auditioning for a double primary in the fall so that I can have both a piano studio and a voice studio. I don't know if I'll be able to be a double major AND a double primary... but I really want to! Yikes! I'm used to having tons of work, and frankly I'm pretty good at having tons of work - I made it through this entire semester making it to the Y several times (not nearly enough, but some...) and working 10-15 hours a week on campus, plus 19-ish credits (technically only 18 show up on my transcript, but Ed Lab counts as "zero credits" even though it's 1 credit hour plus a 15 hour project every semester, so it's 19. Bah).
Yikes. And there are all of my academic crises all typed up into livejournal. Thoughts?