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[sleeplesshadow]

I've decided. I have done enough here. I'm closing this journal down.

Reason:
1. I have enough of writing.
2. I keep getting this:

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Comments

[crashthatragedy]

ALOHA. I have to say this: THANK YOU FOR ADDING ME BACK. REALLY. That was pretty fast and unexpected. Btw, i think you know me. 'I think'. :D

[sleeplesshadow]

I am fast? I saw you add me and I just continue writing almost one page of my chapter 2 to 9095 mansion. lol.

I know you? I do? Where do I know you?

[crashthatragedy]

Ohh. Ahh. That is good. I particularly enjoy reading your fics as well. Stalker-ish behaviour much. Pardon me please.

Oh not in real life of course. You know me from winglin.

[sleeplesshadow]

Obviously we don't know in real life. lol. Because no one around me is actually a DBSK fan. I'm a loner in DBSK fandom. Sadly.

That's what I'm thinking. Probably from Winglin. Ah~ Are you the writer of 'the mistress'? I hope I got that right. I wanted to write the name of the other story... but that name is very hard to remember. XD Am I right?

[crashthatragedy]

Birds of a feather flock together ... I can totally relate to that. Everyone just stares weirdly at me or asks me to shut the hell up if I burst into song or start spazzing about DBSK.

*ding ding ding* Good guess. Yes you are right.

[sleeplesshadow]

Really? At least my friends would try to look interested when I start talking about DBSK, like non-stop, in high tone and overly excited. I utterly fail to recruit a DBSK fangirl.

Yes! I'm right.^^ It comes to me suddenly. XD You're going to post a new chappie soon?

[crashthatragedy]

Haha. One day you'll be able to influence them. But to be honest, I kind of enjoy this solitude in a sense. (Which only applies to in reality since I enjoy spazzing online too much) Because it feels like you're the only one who spazzes over them ... okay if you don't get what i mean, it's totally fine. I'm kind of rambling on and on now...

Hopefully, yes. But once again I have all these ideas popping up out of nowhere and I'm itching to write them down before I forget them. And I can't wait for your updates! :D

[sleeplesshadow]

You are one interesting person I get to know. lol. Though I kind of really don't get what you mean...

Nay... I don't think I'll ever influence them. I stopped having that thought long long time again. XD

I hope I get that new update soon! My muse came to me last night when I am just going to doze off in bed. They always came in bad timing.

[crashthatragedy]

Seriously? That's a first, definitely. But a nice first. Thanksss. :D

Aww. That sounds sad. :( Same goes with me. At least I know I'll always have the huge fan group online who spazzes along with me (like you) :D

So am I! I'm still in the process though. Yeah I get what you mean, haha. It just flickers on and off like a switch and comes at the weirdest/wrong-est times ever.

[sleeplesshadow]

It's not really that bad. Yeah... I agree. At least I get to know some DBSK fans online. :) I still don't think if anyone can handle my fangirl-ness toward DBSK. Sometimes I think I had practically make DBSK my life. Not healthy. XD

You're writing now? You explained them quite well. They are indeed just like flicker. There are once I can go on and on, the next minute I can't seems to write anything.

You're going to post at LJ? I abandoned winglin.^^

[crashthatragedy]

Sometimes I think I had practically make DBSK my life. Not healthy. XD

YES. That is so true. I couldn't agree more with you. Sometimes I wish I could give them up so that I could focus more on myself or my own life but ... it's practically impossible. So hard. Unless they get married, have kids and stop appearing in the entertainment industry anymore :P

Yeah kind of. Indeed. I wish inspiration wouldn't do this to me but it does.

You abandoned winglin?! Oh dear. That's sad. But quite understandable. I don't think I'm going to use LJ because it's purely for stalking tracking some of my fave fics or communities. :D

[sleeplesshadow]

What you says is so true. You actually shared my thought. It's so sad that only DBSK can make me happy. They had become my life. I think I even lost my character. I think my friends would even consider Kim=DBSK. XD

It's ok. I still stalk Winglin. XD Just I won't post my story there anymore. I'll stalk your stories. When are you going to post them?

[crashthatragedy]

Actually hearing that is quite saddening. Imagine how many people have actually lost themselves in the midst of fangirling/fanboying over DBSK. But I think one day we will all snap out of it when we get over this stage. Which I don't really hope for because as much as I want to stop obsessing so much over them I love them too much to even try it.

DBSKim. :D

Ohh. Yes. I will. Soon :D I already feel so guilty leaving them untouched for a long time.

Btw. I'm sorry for spamming your lj with comments.

[sleeplesshadow]

I think one day I'll snap out of it. For now, I don't want to care and just live with it. My life really sucks. I was always forced to do things I don't like and basically it became my life until DBSK came to me. So, I still think DBSK hanging me on, if not I probably would have kill myself because life is getting meaningless.

Don't worry about spamming my LJ with comments. It makes me happy to talk to you. :) I'm a bit lonely, especially when I'm at home.

[crashthatragedy]

For now, I don't want to care and just live with it.

You are so right. I totally agree with that. But also, I do think there are loads of beautiful and meaningful things in this world. Many things to do and see if we really had all the freedom to ourselves.

Haha alright I'll take your word for it. :D I'm a merciless person when it comes to spamming.

[sleeplesshadow]

I get what you mean. I want that freedom. People said, it is alright that we make a mistake, we'll learn from it. I made a mistake once, and was never forgiven. I was then stripped off the power to make decisions. Life is indeed meaningless if you are a puppet. Like a white mice in an experiment.

Well, at least no one is controlling me from fangirling DBSK. XD

Don't hold back. Don't show any mercy in spamming my LJ. XD I give you the freedom. lol.