allow me to say...
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Thank you.
So I am generally feeling very keyboard-smashy due to a lot of things, because of uni, because of myself, because of a lot of things.
I have another essay due next week. WTF. I still have no certificates. I'll have to do the copying thing again. *groan*
And today at uni, my seminar lecturer for my literature/philosophy class totally lectured us for going there unprepared, and he was right. We're supposed to read a bunch of things before we go to his seminar, because it's supposed to be a discussion, but I haven't even read the book we're analysing or the theory bits from the theory book. I have completely neglected that class because of that essay last week. But I need to learn to deal with this, and work hard, because this is university, not high school. No one will come and tell me "you know what? get off your butt and start doing some work"... It's up to me. I need to keep that in mind.
And generally speaking, I feel completely unable to catch up with everything. I mean it. EVERYTHING. Uni, fandoms, watching things, reading things, music, you name it. Things just keep whizzing past me and I'm all like "... what just happened?! O__o" I keep feeling clueless and behind in everything I do, and I don't know if it's just because I'm lazy or because I do too many things and end up leaving too many other things because one only has so much time and willpower. I just can't be bothered most of the time. But that's not right. And then I get certain attitudes from certain people that make me feel like total worthless crap, because they're not behind in those things, but I am.
I want to cry, seriously. This is too much.
Thank you.
So I am generally feeling very keyboard-smashy due to a lot of things, because of uni, because of myself, because of a lot of things.
I have another essay due next week. WTF. I still have no certificates. I'll have to do the copying thing again. *groan*
And today at uni, my seminar lecturer for my literature/philosophy class totally lectured us for going there unprepared, and he was right. We're supposed to read a bunch of things before we go to his seminar, because it's supposed to be a discussion, but I haven't even read the book we're analysing or the theory bits from the theory book. I have completely neglected that class because of that essay last week. But I need to learn to deal with this, and work hard, because this is university, not high school. No one will come and tell me "you know what? get off your butt and start doing some work"... It's up to me. I need to keep that in mind.
And generally speaking, I feel completely unable to catch up with everything. I mean it. EVERYTHING. Uni, fandoms, watching things, reading things, music, you name it. Things just keep whizzing past me and I'm all like "... what just happened?! O__o" I keep feeling clueless and behind in everything I do, and I don't know if it's just because I'm lazy or because I do too many things and end up leaving too many other things because one only has so much time and willpower. I just can't be bothered most of the time. But that's not right. And then I get certain attitudes from certain people that make me feel like total worthless crap, because they're not behind in those things, but I am.
I want to cry, seriously. This is too much.