on more recent events
well, anyway, these days i've been training alot, training with a bow-staff(well, it's a broomstick, but when you use it for fighting, it's a bow-staff, lol)
been doing that for hours everyday, since holidays started, which was nearly a week now, but i've been doing it since i was like 6, so it's nothing new
i think of fighting as a form of meditation, so it really helps me to clear my mind, and i've also doing normal meditation too, so i've been very reflective(even more than usual these days) pondering life's mysteries and meanings
i've been thinking bout going away to Tibet or somewhere around the borders of india an china, or prolly just india, in the himalayas, i'll, go wandering, find some inner peace and whatnot. I just have the problem of the fact that i still have to get my degree, which means another 4 years in the system that really seems like it's holding me back. But for my parents peace of mind, and to have a sound back-up plan, i'll get my degree, then i'll go off.
when i go, i'll find a guru and go into training, to find my Self. So i'll basically become a monk, which'll be awesome, though it'll be somewhat hard to leave everything i know behind, give up material possesions, and live off the land and stuff(beg for food and hunt >_<). But it'll be worth it, plus, i'm not too attach to physical things as most are, actually they mean very little to me, so i think i'm ready. Physical things include people, well, at least their bodies, but i believe we are all connected spiritually, so i won't have to miss anyone once i remember that.
That doesn't mean it won't be hard letting go, it always is, but i'll come back in some years after, perhaps guide people, then when i get old, i'll go back to the forests or mountains or whatever.
well, those are my general thoughts these days, not going into any wisdom i've found, but more on the actions that'll i'll take with the knowledge i've gained. Since within my search, i've found so many truths, and to each, a thousands more questions are formed, and it'll be impossible to dive into it now.
Here are two more poems i've made:
Venom
I felt it,
It went down my throat,
Sweet Sweet Liquid,
Succulent Venom,
I knew it’s bitter taste,
Quite well.
Did I know,
While I was sucking it down,
And felt it flow,
Felt it drown,
That it was poison,
Seeping to my soul,
Making it frozen,
Making it cold.
Did I see,
How it sang,
When I kissed thee,
And drank from the fang,
Did I feel it change me,
Corrupt my heart,
You were the poisoned key,
From the start.
It turned me purple,
It coloured me blue,
A perfect circle,
Travelled by few.
Round and round
Till it filled me up inside,
There wasn’t a sound,
So there I lied,
Alone now,
I cursed thou,
But now I am,
Who I always wanted to be,
It turned me purple,
It coloured me blue,
The Succulent Venom,
That I had sewed.
By Kishan Solomon
Crescents of Silk
Light the sparkling sand,
Golden crescents upon horizons,
Wandering the forgotten land,
I can see the sun rise.
But before that,
I watched the shining stars,
Upon the dune I sat,
Thinking from afar.
The wind whispers,
Echoes,
The Eternal,
It spoke a language,
I didn’t know quite well.
Caressed my shawl,
The sand hailed like rain,
And then settled.
Then it was just night,
Silky vacuum,
Speckled with diamonds,
Reflecting the light in our eyes,
In our soul,
That could penetrate the Eternal.
I was lost in thought,
And so was the rhythm,
I was found in emotion,
And careless confusion.
In a deserted place,
I looked around,
Without a face,
I heard not a sound.
There I sailed,
In this golden sea,
I had failed,
But that was the key.
But the night went on,
In this distant land,
Till the desert’s dawn,
Lighting the sparkling sand.
Dedicated to Lexi
By Kishan Solomon