summer time, the end and beginning of so much, ironic it's in the middle of the year
yaaaaaaaay!!!!!!!!!
school done!!!!!!!!!
now technically i'm unemployed, and i don't belong to a school
which is cool, i dunno why tho
i'll apply for school later this summer, then two years till college
exams went well, i think i did quite well, but we'll wait for results
during exams alot of stuff came up, but i ignored it kinda till after
which is now, so i have to sort some stuff out
i got a girlfriend now(that's one of the things that needed sorting out)
i couldn't decide immediately, cuz i've been in love with some1 else, buti can't be with that person, not now either
it took alot of thought to make my decision
which was that in two years, if we still together, i'll make a decision
my grad date switched, which would make sense
cuz my friend said they wanted me to go with my gf, but i felt bad, cuz then she would need to get a new date
but she said she knew some1 who would take her but she told them "no" before since she was going with me, so it may be alright
well, i'm not one to get into a relationship for the sake of being in one
hell, it's one of the aspects of society that i hate with a passion
it's makes so many ppl insecure
these relationship problems hurting them since they were 13 or 14, and though that wasn't long ago, it's a young age
and well, it was the same for me, but my situation was quite different, i didn't go looking for it
i don't think it's right we have to justify our existance through another
i think there are different layers of love(obviously)
and 2, in particular, are important
one is true love, which i can't describe, cuz there is no description
the second is an artificial love, the persons do have feelings for each other
but it's not "true love" per se
it's just an attration, connection, chemisty w/e
true love tracends any description like that, it is even more than a connection, though it is, it is more like an entity in itself that surrounds the two, not a link between two separate entitities
let me tell you one time, it is impossible to tell if you're truly in love or not
both have the same kinda symptoms, can't be describe the same way, and if you only felt the artificial love, then there's no way you'd think there's more
only way i know is because of experience, it is the only way to know, i've felt both and well, it's sad you could never tell
the difference is the feeling, when you touch the other person, when you see them, their presence
you get an overwhelming feeling in both cases, it's just the amount of feeling that's different
also you could get over something that isn't true love after perhaps a decade or two
you never get over true love
i think the other love happens when ppl search for love
they create feeling in their mind
well, they build on the connection they have with the other person
so already they have to have a good connection, but ppl take it as love
then they get hurt, cuz they think when they lose that they lose everything
they make these feelings based on movies and the media in general, in all forms it comes to us, how are we not to start to try to make it ourself, in our subconcious most of the time
well believe love finds you, you don't find love
and i think alot of ppl never find love because they stick with a love they made for themselves
but i can't say it's wrong, since they find happiness with it, and they may never have found true love either way
it's just kinda messed up
i don't know how i feel about my gf, my emotions are blurred with all the stuff happening with me
i love her, and it's not artificial, but i dunno if it's true love, cuz well, as i said, there are different layers, so i don't wanna say anything for sure
this doesn't mean that it's prolly not, it just means it hurts too much to think about it and decide
also, with the other girl, i KNOW it is true love, so it hurts that i can't be with her, but things are changing with that situation either way, so i dunno, but i'll still have two years to wait anyway
anyway, right now i'm going to enjoy my vacation, and i'm so happy to have my gf with me, and all my friends to
let's leave the stress and problems that may be a consequence for when they arrive, i'll take things as they come
school done!!!!!!!!!
now technically i'm unemployed, and i don't belong to a school
which is cool, i dunno why tho
i'll apply for school later this summer, then two years till college
exams went well, i think i did quite well, but we'll wait for results
during exams alot of stuff came up, but i ignored it kinda till after
which is now, so i have to sort some stuff out
i got a girlfriend now(that's one of the things that needed sorting out)
i couldn't decide immediately, cuz i've been in love with some1 else, buti can't be with that person, not now either
it took alot of thought to make my decision
which was that in two years, if we still together, i'll make a decision
my grad date switched, which would make sense
cuz my friend said they wanted me to go with my gf, but i felt bad, cuz then she would need to get a new date
but she said she knew some1 who would take her but she told them "no" before since she was going with me, so it may be alright
well, i'm not one to get into a relationship for the sake of being in one
hell, it's one of the aspects of society that i hate with a passion
it's makes so many ppl insecure
these relationship problems hurting them since they were 13 or 14, and though that wasn't long ago, it's a young age
and well, it was the same for me, but my situation was quite different, i didn't go looking for it
i don't think it's right we have to justify our existance through another
i think there are different layers of love(obviously)
and 2, in particular, are important
one is true love, which i can't describe, cuz there is no description
the second is an artificial love, the persons do have feelings for each other
but it's not "true love" per se
it's just an attration, connection, chemisty w/e
true love tracends any description like that, it is even more than a connection, though it is, it is more like an entity in itself that surrounds the two, not a link between two separate entitities
let me tell you one time, it is impossible to tell if you're truly in love or not
both have the same kinda symptoms, can't be describe the same way, and if you only felt the artificial love, then there's no way you'd think there's more
only way i know is because of experience, it is the only way to know, i've felt both and well, it's sad you could never tell
the difference is the feeling, when you touch the other person, when you see them, their presence
you get an overwhelming feeling in both cases, it's just the amount of feeling that's different
also you could get over something that isn't true love after perhaps a decade or two
you never get over true love
i think the other love happens when ppl search for love
they create feeling in their mind
well, they build on the connection they have with the other person
so already they have to have a good connection, but ppl take it as love
then they get hurt, cuz they think when they lose that they lose everything
they make these feelings based on movies and the media in general, in all forms it comes to us, how are we not to start to try to make it ourself, in our subconcious most of the time
well believe love finds you, you don't find love
and i think alot of ppl never find love because they stick with a love they made for themselves
but i can't say it's wrong, since they find happiness with it, and they may never have found true love either way
it's just kinda messed up
i don't know how i feel about my gf, my emotions are blurred with all the stuff happening with me
i love her, and it's not artificial, but i dunno if it's true love, cuz well, as i said, there are different layers, so i don't wanna say anything for sure
this doesn't mean that it's prolly not, it just means it hurts too much to think about it and decide
also, with the other girl, i KNOW it is true love, so it hurts that i can't be with her, but things are changing with that situation either way, so i dunno, but i'll still have two years to wait anyway
anyway, right now i'm going to enjoy my vacation, and i'm so happy to have my gf with me, and all my friends to
let's leave the stress and problems that may be a consequence for when they arrive, i'll take things as they come