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Whoaa....I just read a journal I forgot about a while ago. What's funny to me is no matter how much of an asshole a guy is, they are ALWAYS right. Even though a bestfriend that I had a crush on made it clear that he was only interested in one girl, I led him on? By being nice? And being aggressive because he cried whenever I talked to someone else? By always being there and listening to his ranting about someone? ALL THE FUCKING TIME? Sure, blame it on me because I was there for you and you wanted someone else but yet you didn't want me to date anyone. Fuck you. Open your eyes and care about someone else for once.
Also, someone I dated three times claims that a situation happening between me and my friend is completely my fault? Because of what happened between me and him? And that was completely my fault? Well, I'm fucking sorry I liked you for who you were. I never cared about how you looked or your weight. You fucking bastard. You were the one with the confidence problems and you only gave a fuck about yourself. Poor you, "I'm fat, I'm a loser...blah blah blah." I'm fucking sorry that you never listened to me. And is it really my fault that your bestfriend was a better friend to me that you ever were? You turned into a goddamn poser which is somewhat sad from what me and your ... is it ex-bestfriend now?.... realized. I hope you die slowly and painfully. Well, I hope you're doing ok, and all the best. I hope you find someone who suits you that can put up with all your bullshit. Good luck in life.
And by the way, Patrick is the only guy I ever really liked. Things would have lasted if had a bit more confidence. Even though he had a bad attitude and we had misunderstandings, he was the only guy I ever completely trusted. I'm sorry my friends thought he wasn't good enough, and I'm sorry that he thought he wasn't good enough. But once again, my feelings don't count, right?
Anyways, that was jsut something I needed to put out whether its said or not. I don't care about anything like that anymore. Think whatever you want. I'm a complete different person now than I was back freshman year. Too bad some people just don't learn. My mistakes helped me realize just who I wanted to be and the friends I needed to have. I don't need a guy. I finally found friends that are true. Real friends that are worth having. As long as they're there, I'll be ok. I love you guys, and you know who you are!
Also, someone I dated three times claims that a situation happening between me and my friend is completely my fault? Because of what happened between me and him? And that was completely my fault? Well, I'm fucking sorry I liked you for who you were. I never cared about how you looked or your weight. You fucking bastard. You were the one with the confidence problems and you only gave a fuck about yourself. Poor you, "I'm fat, I'm a loser...blah blah blah." I'm fucking sorry that you never listened to me. And is it really my fault that your bestfriend was a better friend to me that you ever were? You turned into a goddamn poser which is somewhat sad from what me and your ... is it ex-bestfriend now?.... realized. I hope you die slowly and painfully. Well, I hope you're doing ok, and all the best. I hope you find someone who suits you that can put up with all your bullshit. Good luck in life.
And by the way, Patrick is the only guy I ever really liked. Things would have lasted if had a bit more confidence. Even though he had a bad attitude and we had misunderstandings, he was the only guy I ever completely trusted. I'm sorry my friends thought he wasn't good enough, and I'm sorry that he thought he wasn't good enough. But once again, my feelings don't count, right?
Anyways, that was jsut something I needed to put out whether its said or not. I don't care about anything like that anymore. Think whatever you want. I'm a complete different person now than I was back freshman year. Too bad some people just don't learn. My mistakes helped me realize just who I wanted to be and the friends I needed to have. I don't need a guy. I finally found friends that are true. Real friends that are worth having. As long as they're there, I'll be ok. I love you guys, and you know who you are!