I like your face from the left side...
I know it's a cliche idea, but life is a constant swirl of change. No matter what is happening, very little is permanent. Situations change, people change, relationships change, places change.
Ariana officially moved out Thursday night. We are beginning to erase every trace of her. Our room has opened up and is now so free and light. And Cara and I celebrated (hard) all weekend. heh. Let's just say I have now consumed enough alcohol for the rest of the quarter. No more need for that. I really like Cara. Being roommates with her was worth the whole Ariana debacle because... I have made a genuine friend. With someone who is so different from me and from my life... yet we get along fabulously.
My brother's coming to visit by himself on Friday... and I'm really excited about it. I don't know what the fuck we're going to do or what we're even going to talk about (as he is a taciturn teenage boy whenever he's around me), but I really, really like my bro. A lot. And I'm sorry we aren't the friends we used to be. When we were little we were best friends... almost inseperable. But then I hit junior high and everything changed. I have faith we will become friends again like that as we get older, but I'm just worried I'm wasting time now. I always wished I was someone that he wanted to be friends with (in the sense of hanging out, etc.) but I don't know if that can happen now.
My parents are coming to visit, too, after Skyler comes down. I really miss them right now and am ridiculously excited to see them. I want them to see my life here... because it's hard to remember that they don't know everyone I know. Obviously they can't, but I want them to know about my life, you know?
Over the past few weeks my relationships with everyone from home have been changing, I've noticed. Karen came to visit me... and it was fantastic. The more I get to know her the more I just adore her. I feel like being at college hasn't done anything but make our friendship stronger. Unfortunately, that is the exception with me and people from home. I do realize that I shouldn't be comparing, but it's hard not to. The only reason I'm really analyzing this is because things with Sofia have been rather distant lately... which is how things go with us, though. As wonderful friends we are, we do go through swings where we spend a lot of time together and then periods where we don't. The periods where we don't, however, seem to coincide with her having a boyfriend. It's just kinda sad that everything else becomes secondary to that... but what can I do? It's her life and her choice. It just sucks for me.
On a much cooler note, anyone who reads this should seriously consider coming to see Dave at the Gorge this summer. Two of my friends from stanford are going to fly up from Texas and go see dave with me saturday and sunday and we're going to camp. SO- you should all come. Thus far Ryan Stoufer is coming... and I don't know who else. But it's going to be amazing.
Stanford is starting to feel normal. Like home, without being home. But I'm really liking my life here. And i'm liking the people I'm meeting a lot. It's just a continuous reminder that hearts and lives are always expandable.
Ariana officially moved out Thursday night. We are beginning to erase every trace of her. Our room has opened up and is now so free and light. And Cara and I celebrated (hard) all weekend. heh. Let's just say I have now consumed enough alcohol for the rest of the quarter. No more need for that. I really like Cara. Being roommates with her was worth the whole Ariana debacle because... I have made a genuine friend. With someone who is so different from me and from my life... yet we get along fabulously.
My brother's coming to visit by himself on Friday... and I'm really excited about it. I don't know what the fuck we're going to do or what we're even going to talk about (as he is a taciturn teenage boy whenever he's around me), but I really, really like my bro. A lot. And I'm sorry we aren't the friends we used to be. When we were little we were best friends... almost inseperable. But then I hit junior high and everything changed. I have faith we will become friends again like that as we get older, but I'm just worried I'm wasting time now. I always wished I was someone that he wanted to be friends with (in the sense of hanging out, etc.) but I don't know if that can happen now.
My parents are coming to visit, too, after Skyler comes down. I really miss them right now and am ridiculously excited to see them. I want them to see my life here... because it's hard to remember that they don't know everyone I know. Obviously they can't, but I want them to know about my life, you know?
Over the past few weeks my relationships with everyone from home have been changing, I've noticed. Karen came to visit me... and it was fantastic. The more I get to know her the more I just adore her. I feel like being at college hasn't done anything but make our friendship stronger. Unfortunately, that is the exception with me and people from home. I do realize that I shouldn't be comparing, but it's hard not to. The only reason I'm really analyzing this is because things with Sofia have been rather distant lately... which is how things go with us, though. As wonderful friends we are, we do go through swings where we spend a lot of time together and then periods where we don't. The periods where we don't, however, seem to coincide with her having a boyfriend. It's just kinda sad that everything else becomes secondary to that... but what can I do? It's her life and her choice. It just sucks for me.
On a much cooler note, anyone who reads this should seriously consider coming to see Dave at the Gorge this summer. Two of my friends from stanford are going to fly up from Texas and go see dave with me saturday and sunday and we're going to camp. SO- you should all come. Thus far Ryan Stoufer is coming... and I don't know who else. But it's going to be amazing.
Stanford is starting to feel normal. Like home, without being home. But I'm really liking my life here. And i'm liking the people I'm meeting a lot. It's just a continuous reminder that hearts and lives are always expandable.