opening doors and pulling some strings...
so it has been sometime since I have "updated". I had very nearly fogotten that I had this account, if it had not been brought up by him I dont believe I would be here, now, typing. I have a great many things to say... and as I sit here and recount them (mentally at the moment) my pesky memory is playing "hide and go seek". so Im lighting up another cigarette and hoping for a little clarity... a little lucidity.
well let us (or me...) begin by saying helloand thatb I missed anyone (or everyone) who has read my lj... its not much but I likes it. well I have had an interesting time as of late... for some time I had felt in chaos, mentally and emotionally. now Im feeling a bit more ordered if in thought not in deed. I now realize that I love to write and draw and paint (oh look... a run on) and other such creative things... before I just found them amusing if somewhat relaxing. now there is a fire, a drive, to do these things regularly.
I have also found a the most interesting of people... a paradox of sorts. She (yes a she... most of which are confusing to say the least) enjoys writing and reading, but also happens to be fairly attractive (in my experience these things dont seem to go hand-in-hand to often) but she is so caught up in appearences that she is confused. Which makes talking to her kind of strange because I am have some how become a taboo of sorts, at least in the small town I live in. Appearently there was a nasty rumor (these things happen often in little places like the place I call home) that me and her were talking... well "talking", and appearently I was the culprit. So to make a long story short she wont talk to me because I said before I am taboo. This is strange to me because my only intention was to cultivate more intellectually stimulating frineds but somehow this simple act has been twisted. Ahhh to be social creature. I have hopes of fixing this rift but no real means.
I think that is enough for now... but hello to everyone again.
well let us (or me...) begin by saying helloand thatb I missed anyone (or everyone) who has read my lj... its not much but I likes it. well I have had an interesting time as of late... for some time I had felt in chaos, mentally and emotionally. now Im feeling a bit more ordered if in thought not in deed. I now realize that I love to write and draw and paint (oh look... a run on) and other such creative things... before I just found them amusing if somewhat relaxing. now there is a fire, a drive, to do these things regularly.
I have also found a the most interesting of people... a paradox of sorts. She (yes a she... most of which are confusing to say the least) enjoys writing and reading, but also happens to be fairly attractive (in my experience these things dont seem to go hand-in-hand to often) but she is so caught up in appearences that she is confused. Which makes talking to her kind of strange because I am have some how become a taboo of sorts, at least in the small town I live in. Appearently there was a nasty rumor (these things happen often in little places like the place I call home) that me and her were talking... well "talking", and appearently I was the culprit. So to make a long story short she wont talk to me because I said before I am taboo. This is strange to me because my only intention was to cultivate more intellectually stimulating frineds but somehow this simple act has been twisted. Ahhh to be social creature. I have hopes of fixing this rift but no real means.
I think that is enough for now... but hello to everyone again.