falling away from me
as your lives seem to come together
mine is falling apart
drifting like water in oil
i cant remember the last time i was happy
or wasnt stressing over life
i cant remember the last time i looked in the mirrior
and though. yeah im happy with myself
i hide my shame with baggyness
i have no joy
my anger takes over
more than once in the past few weeks
ive been told that ive changed
gotten meaner
more cynicle
my eyes look "sader"
i cant remember the last time i was happy
its a fading memory that doesnt seem to wanna come back
laying on the beach in france
no worry, no schedual
just relaxing and catching up with my causins
i cant remember the last time i felt cunfertable in my skin
walking around ables place in nothing but undies
still worrying about the skin i was in
im tiiered of being unhappy
im tiiered of not being able to sleep
im sick and tiered of worrying bout the future
all my life
only a handful of days i can think back to
and say
i was genuinly happy
i was genuinly confertable in my skin
moving out of new york
leaving some of the greatest friends ill ever have
coming here
to constant stress and worry
heartack
and never knowing when my parents last days might be
im sorry im so cruel
im sorry im so mean
its my protection
the only thing i have left
that i have controle over
maybe my whit is keeping me sane
maybe my i wont take any shit attitude in keeping me tame
i tell you that insults are people showing their insecurities.
and i stand with u being a cynic towards everything
i want things to be like they were
like i see them when i close my eyes
like it used to be when i was truely happy
i need a change in my life
and that change will happen soon
if its the last thing i do
im making things better for me and you
for my family
for the parents that gave up everything
and in return got screwed their whole lives
for myself
because god wont let me rest
because i was ment to fight my whole life
just to be able to smile
i wont give up
i cant give up
because when i do.
itll be my end.
mine is falling apart
drifting like water in oil
i cant remember the last time i was happy
or wasnt stressing over life
i cant remember the last time i looked in the mirrior
and though. yeah im happy with myself
i hide my shame with baggyness
i have no joy
my anger takes over
more than once in the past few weeks
ive been told that ive changed
gotten meaner
more cynicle
my eyes look "sader"
i cant remember the last time i was happy
its a fading memory that doesnt seem to wanna come back
laying on the beach in france
no worry, no schedual
just relaxing and catching up with my causins
i cant remember the last time i felt cunfertable in my skin
walking around ables place in nothing but undies
still worrying about the skin i was in
im tiiered of being unhappy
im tiiered of not being able to sleep
im sick and tiered of worrying bout the future
all my life
only a handful of days i can think back to
and say
i was genuinly happy
i was genuinly confertable in my skin
moving out of new york
leaving some of the greatest friends ill ever have
coming here
to constant stress and worry
heartack
and never knowing when my parents last days might be
im sorry im so cruel
im sorry im so mean
its my protection
the only thing i have left
that i have controle over
maybe my whit is keeping me sane
maybe my i wont take any shit attitude in keeping me tame
i tell you that insults are people showing their insecurities.
and i stand with u being a cynic towards everything
i want things to be like they were
like i see them when i close my eyes
like it used to be when i was truely happy
i need a change in my life
and that change will happen soon
if its the last thing i do
im making things better for me and you
for my family
for the parents that gave up everything
and in return got screwed their whole lives
for myself
because god wont let me rest
because i was ment to fight my whole life
just to be able to smile
i wont give up
i cant give up
because when i do.
itll be my end.