lately
i havnt been able to sleep much in a long time...ever since 7/4/2005 to be exact..
and when i do fall asleep...my dreams are nightmares that seem soo realy they haaunt me the next day.
The Egyptien god Anubis is still in my dreams...every dream i have he's in them..it scares me alittle..im my culture dreams fortell the future..and Anubis is the god that takes the dead to the underworld...
i miss u...u made me feel soo good, and so happy...u know who u are!!!
im torn with my descision of going home or not...i cant decide...i guess i want fate to decide for me...
i think id miss it here way to much..and id miss all the amazing friends ive made here that i know i will never forget
work sucks....its not making me enough money...and im barely able to afford rent and bills.....ill have a good 100 to my name by the end of the mo. and next mo. in screwed cuz theres no party's wich means no income withc means i need to find a job and ask my paretns for help and if i cant find one fast..then i dunno wut
i dont like thinking about it...
i got my venoms...they look really good...and its healing really well and really fast...Chef Massimo and Chef tito like the way it looks on me..
today the chef's and I drank after work...pulled back a few beers...ahh...nothing beats drinking with your boos'es..
did i mention i miss u??
"eloi eloi...lmana sabagh tanee" <~~aramaic
"oh lord oh lord, why have you forsaken me"
p.s. i can hear my roomie getting it on...and its really really really......really disturbing
the end forever
and when i do fall asleep...my dreams are nightmares that seem soo realy they haaunt me the next day.
The Egyptien god Anubis is still in my dreams...every dream i have he's in them..it scares me alittle..im my culture dreams fortell the future..and Anubis is the god that takes the dead to the underworld...
i miss u...u made me feel soo good, and so happy...u know who u are!!!
im torn with my descision of going home or not...i cant decide...i guess i want fate to decide for me...
i think id miss it here way to much..and id miss all the amazing friends ive made here that i know i will never forget
work sucks....its not making me enough money...and im barely able to afford rent and bills.....ill have a good 100 to my name by the end of the mo. and next mo. in screwed cuz theres no party's wich means no income withc means i need to find a job and ask my paretns for help and if i cant find one fast..then i dunno wut
i dont like thinking about it...
i got my venoms...they look really good...and its healing really well and really fast...Chef Massimo and Chef tito like the way it looks on me..
today the chef's and I drank after work...pulled back a few beers...ahh...nothing beats drinking with your boos'es..
did i mention i miss u??
"eloi eloi...lmana sabagh tanee" <~~aramaic
"oh lord oh lord, why have you forsaken me"
p.s. i can hear my roomie getting it on...and its really really really......really disturbing
the end forever