Future goals... this might be a weighty post
So from a month ago I am down from 164.3 to 159.28 (I'm almost scard to write it, under 160, I'm sure this is all a lie.) And the chart of doom! It's like the last 2 years have taken forever but at the same time it is flying by....
My Weight Chart:
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Florence marathon??? I might do it....... Have to decide by the time I get back from America in August I think, otherwise I won't have enough time to train. Imagine a weekend in Florence and you get to run through such an amazing city!!!!
I used to feel so inadequate as a person, not doing well at uni and not feeling good about myself, and now I look back on the last 2 years and feel so thankful for what I had and still have.
My family and friends. I don't know how to tell them sometimes how much they mean to me. I am not an easy person to live with, I know it. But my friends are there anyway. And nothing makes me fell better than calling my sisters and aunts to talk to them.
I am a graduate with a decent degree and I have a job. Sometimes it's not the most exciting but it pays most of my bills.
I am dissatisfied with staying at this level, I know this. So back to uni. In Scotland would be best, but if I move back to america, I can get my masters and find a way back to the uk. Such a large part of me does not believe I could ever leave here. And that is tough to explain to everyone back home. Scotland changed who I was at 18. I would not know me 6 years ago, or even 2 years ago. Or rather, I do know her and she had potential. Working on keeping the good bits, making a better Elizabeth, one who will not back down and is confident in herself. Edinburgh was hard on my confidence, and if I think that every architecture school is like that then I will never go back. Or rather I go back and keep up with the other stuff so I can still feel good about me as a person.
I still have aspirations of being a nutritionist/personal trainer myself. But that is years away. All I know is that my want to help other people feel better about themselves has not gone away. I feel sad that my friend m didn't lose the weight she wanted before she left and that K has stopped running as much.... like if I'd been there for them more they would have kept going....
confidence. I used to have it, be blissfully uncaring about what others thought. Time to get that back. I set my mind on a task 2 years ago and am committed for the long haul. A career is just like that. I am almost committed to architecture for the next 10 years say. get a masters, pay off my mountain of debt. then save for the career i want and go after that. in 5 years time where do i see myself?
somewhere (scotland or boston or california) finished my second degree and working. Still taking care of myself and going out dancing to funky r'n'b. keeping in contact with my friends no matter where they are and i am.
and confident. in myself.