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Walking to work today? Some guy at the gas station asked me if I "really had a pussy."
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I really don't like walking to work. I feel like crying. I feel stupid for everything to heart so much. I wish I didn't.
Work was hellish after that. Mentaly, anyway.
I have no faith in anything I've done recently or what I'm doing. I only have faith in what I've done. I have no faith in reproducing the results.
I feel like droping out of college and ODing on bad work until I die. School is just. Too. Much. or something. I want to quit now. I'm beginning not to care if I have to work at McDonalds my entire life.
I think I hate springtime. I hate feeling sorry for myself and all that. It keeps happening in the spring. Living life like this is like being woven into whatever emotional state you're in, and not being able to really rember anything else. Ever.
I feel so damn incompetent. And I think it would make sense if everyone around me just went away and I died alone in a ditch.
...well, when I feel anything at this moment. I feel mostly nothing right now.
Can't be fucked to either lock or make a new post, so-
1. I can't find my ID card. I can't cash my checks and get money out of the bank to cover the wholes in the Fanime money without it. If I don't send it in, I'll refund it, after Friday.
3. Kathy, I found my installer discs. When do you want me to come by?