Just a Substitute
Britt, you arent just a substitute. I dont know why you keep saying that! Im sick of hearing it. I have been trying to make up for lost time and it hasnt been very easy. Like the other day. I told you i would call you at 12:30 and i would see if i could meet you somewhere to go eat lunch and hang out for a while, so i did just that. I know i must have called more than 4 times and you never picked up! Right now everything is just kind of all up in the air and I'm trying to pull it down one thing at a time but its hard when you keep going higher and higher. I really dont know what to say anymore about it. Yea I have been somewhat distracted by Jessica and stuff but its not like i just totally forget about you. In fact I wouldnt be suprised if she is getting sick of hearing about you seeing how everything i talk about is "oh yea, one time when me and Britt where...". All I'm trying to do is get all of my shit in order. I cant stand being out of my routine. Im not smoking anymore until Halloween and then i need to stop totally after that and... I dont know... its like i have everything i ever wanted but its all behind plexiglas, untouchable and so close. My dad and steph being here is driving me crazy here lately too. Sure its cool having them here cus i have someone to hang out with but its hard dealing with everyones miscommunication and disorder. I just want you to understand Britt., that I cant afford to screw anything up. I have what i want, everything it seems, but its all suspended just out or reach. Well I better be getting to bed.
Love Ya's All,
* Randy Dandy *
Love Ya's All,
* Randy Dandy *