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Summer Time...and the livin's easy...kinda
Not too much new. Had my open house last weekend. It was pretty nice. Everyone who i hoped would attend, did...for the most part anyways. Nathan and shawn made it to the actual graduation, and well...ryan has a pretty good excuse. I dont much appreciate them all being on differnt continents while im trying to have an open house, but I Know they all would have been there if they could have been. The whole open house was kinda awkward. I didnt know my place, or where i belonged. It felt like i should be everywhere and no where at the same time...and i didnt much care for it. Thanks to everyone that came, and speaking of open houses...some of my favorite people are having theirs this weekend. Gives me somthing to look forward too...
In other news...ive been keeping pretty busy. Summer is going by ridiculously fast. I dont much appreciate that. I feel so old being out of high school. I dont miss it, i want to move on...but im not sure i want to grow up. I told mike the other night that i thought i was going through some sort of mid-mid life crises. Speaking of mike...we've been spending a lot of time together. I really like being around him. For once in my life i dont feel like a second choice, or a back up plan. I've finally found some sort of stability, somthing ive been searching for for awhile. I go to bed knowing he cares about me, and wake up knowing things havent changed. Although i still have insecurities about having to look and act perfect, its just somthing i have to get over...i cant fix that over night. Who knows maybe i wont be a heartless bitch forever. I dont deserve to be this happy.
It's a beautiful day, im going to the beach.
Not too much new. Had my open house last weekend. It was pretty nice. Everyone who i hoped would attend, did...for the most part anyways. Nathan and shawn made it to the actual graduation, and well...ryan has a pretty good excuse. I dont much appreciate them all being on differnt continents while im trying to have an open house, but I Know they all would have been there if they could have been. The whole open house was kinda awkward. I didnt know my place, or where i belonged. It felt like i should be everywhere and no where at the same time...and i didnt much care for it. Thanks to everyone that came, and speaking of open houses...some of my favorite people are having theirs this weekend. Gives me somthing to look forward too...
In other news...ive been keeping pretty busy. Summer is going by ridiculously fast. I dont much appreciate that. I feel so old being out of high school. I dont miss it, i want to move on...but im not sure i want to grow up. I told mike the other night that i thought i was going through some sort of mid-mid life crises. Speaking of mike...we've been spending a lot of time together. I really like being around him. For once in my life i dont feel like a second choice, or a back up plan. I've finally found some sort of stability, somthing ive been searching for for awhile. I go to bed knowing he cares about me, and wake up knowing things havent changed. Although i still have insecurities about having to look and act perfect, its just somthing i have to get over...i cant fix that over night. Who knows maybe i wont be a heartless bitch forever. I dont deserve to be this happy.
It's a beautiful day, im going to the beach.