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I got hired to do freelance makeup for Bobby Brown which is aaaawsome! I start next week, and ill be all $$$$$ and shiz. I love makeup. Freelance is definitely the way to go with it, and Bobby Brown is really pretty and natural looking so i wont have to worry about making 15 year olds look like drag queens. I finally slept in for the first time today in too long. Ive been working really hard, but i got paid and it rules. Everything else besides these things really sucks though. Ive never been so cynical in my life. Ive never thought of myself as a shit talker or really the type of person who hates things. Im a pretty optomistic person, but lately i hate EVERYTHING. i feel like such a fucking mess. I dont even know still whats really going on between kenji and i. I dont know where my lifes going. I dont know jack shit. But what i do know is that ive been very, deeply unhappy, and it feels at times neverending. IT gets better when im working, but as soon as im home for a while thats it. I hate everything. I gotta go to bed though and wake up for work!