Stinko+Sleena=mucho happy-oso
I'm sorry that i have made you upset in the past few weeks. I feel like you are leaving me...or I'm pushing you away again .. And I'm so sorry . I don't want to end up losing you again . I will do anything to keep you near me. I feel so stupid for even thinking that choosing that over you would be better for me or even help me. I love you SO much and no matter how much you protest I know you do too. I miss feeling like I can talk to you. I'm tired of having to deal with you being mad at me . Not even mad just fed up with the way I have been acting. Well, probably mad , but whatever. I want to fix everything. I feel like shit for making you upset and I know it doesn't seem like it because I went right out and did it again. And I look at you and I just want to cry because i have fucked things up between us so many times but you are still there when I finally breakdown and need someone to take care of me. You are my best friend and I don't know what I'd do if you just decided this time you weren't going to be there. I am going to straighten up. I promise. But I want you to be there. Please please forgive me for being stoopid and repeating history. Gawd I'm so eloquent..........