useless lyrics post as i get closer to pulling the trigger

[sleazeybakeoven]

Clearly, clearly I remember
Nervous if ever confronted
And questioning myself

Oh perhaps, perhaps if I got better
Perhaps if I challenged myself
Perhaps if I was

Just a little bit stronger
Just a little bit wiser
Just a little less needy

And maybe I'd get there...

Just a little bit pretty
Just a little more aware
Just a little bit thinner

And maybe I'd get there...

Clearly, clearly I remember
Days of useless crying
Almost feeling dead

Oh perhaps, perhaps if I was smaller
Perhaps, I could control myself
Perhaps if I was

Just a little bit stronger
Just a little bit wiser
Just a little less needy

And maybe I'd get there...

Just a little bit pretty
Just a little more aware
Just a little bit thinner

And maybe I'd get there...

I just poured my heart out
there's bits of it on the floor
And I take what's left of it and rinse it under cold water
And call them up for more

And I say baby, yes I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too

He said I'm sorry
so sorry
I'm sorry
so sorry

He grabs my wrist
as my fingers turn into angry fists
and I whisper why can't you love me, I'll change for you
I'll play the part

And I say baby, so I feel stupid to call me, but I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too

He said I'm sorry
so sorry
I'm sorry
I am sorry