Philosophical Musings
Drunkenness wakens so much awareness in my mind. I realize how much I've wasted in my life. I realize that I might have made a great mistake with my choices....my choices of where to live, where to work, and who to spend the rest of my life with. I really don't want to leave all my friends behind in Raleigh. I have no friends back home. I'm so afraid of getting stuck in a hum-drum world that I'm almost willing to call up my future employer tomorrow and say, "Yeah, I was just kidding." I guess I'm just young and rebellious, but I really feel a connection with people here and the way of life here. I don't want to leave that or these people behind. I can't believe it's OVER. Eight years of my life spent working toward a selfish dream, and it's OVER. What the hell was I thinking?? Maybe I need to sober up and face reality or maybe I need to drink some more. Life is so much more fun when you're drunk though. Maybe I need mental help....