At the close of
a recent interview, an author shared something personal with me about one of her novels. I asked if I could relate the story here at Bildungsroman, and she granted me permission. Here now, in her own (italicized) words, is Melissa Lion.
I want to say one more thing, I'm not sure how this
will fit in to your
story, or if it will at all, but I was in San Diego
this weekend and I
took
my best friend to Mount Soledad. He'd never been
there despite growing
up
in San Diego. It was night and we took the exact
route Sam takes with
Farouk. It was quiet and late and I was holding my
breath. We looked
at
the cross, at the city below us and I felt the
presence of my
characters. I
felt Sam's heartache and desire for Farouk. I felt so
still, listening
for
them.
We drove back down and I told my friend that
this was where they
were
heading downhill and where I expected the stop sign,
there was none.
I had
gotten it wrong. I told my friend that there was
supposed to be a stop
sign
at the bottom of the hill and that Farouk would run
it, that Sam's hand
was
pressed to the dashboard.
He said, "What happens?"
"The chapter
ends," I
said.
I'm in the process of saying goodbye to
Southern California for
good
and I'm excited, but sad at the same time. I'm ready
to go, but I will
miss
my characters. I will miss who I was in high school.
That girl still
lives
in San Diego. She's still running after Farouk, after
her father,
after who
she wants to be.
You may wonder why my best friend hasn't read my book.
I wonder that
too.
I wonder why I had to buy him a copy of it two weeks
ago. It's a mystery.
How can I follow that? I can't. I can simply share with you my favorite quotes from novels. These lines echo in my mind.
Swollen by Melissa Lion
"You could fill a book with the things you haven't seen." (Farouk)
"Books are already filled with them," I said, "And posters and television shows." (Sam) - Page 130
I counted in fours because if I stopped, the tears in my eyes would spill over. - Page 138
And so I waited in the library and touched the spines of the books I should have read long ago to make myself smart, to keep up with him. - Page 161
I turned the light off and listened in the silence for the voices of people I had loved within these walls. - Page 181
Upstream by Melissa Lion
And here are the things I know: Time will never be what my watch says. Time passes too fast when you just want it to stop, and time passes too slow when all you wish for is a lifetime in a minute. It'll just never be what it really is, hands moving on a clock. - Page 41
"Seriously, it takes a lot to shock me. I lived in San Francisco for nearly ten years. I grew up in L.A. Do you love girls and not boys? I'm cool with that. Did someone hit you? I'll hit him back. Does he love someone else? Well, that girl's a s___ with bad shoes." - Katherine to Martha (Marty), Page 55
She misses someone. Maybe someone in her old life. Someone I'll never know. - Page 77
And there are things I understand without needing to know. There are times in this life when the person you miss most is the person you used to be. - Page 77
I put down my pencil and rub my eyes. I want to believe that if I rub them hard enough, Dottie will disappear and come back in with a different thing to tell me. She will tell me that Sean proposed or that she finally got an A in a class and not what she is about to tell me and make my worst fears come true. - Page 91
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Book Review: Swollen by Melissa Lion,
Interview: Melissa Lion,
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