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So I worked out yesterday and attempted to work out today. Unfortunately I gave up shortly after starting. My legs and arms just hurt too much from doing the workout yesterday. It was a real hit to my confidence and I've been feeling really bad about it. I know come July I'm going to get made fun of/judged harshly by my Grandpa and possibly one of my cousins (not to mention my bitchy Aunt) for being overweight.
I don't know why liking myself and not judging my self worth based on my weight is something that apparently only I can do. Its one thing to not feel bad about yourself when no one mentions anything but its a lot harder to not start hating myself when people start commenting on how heavy I've gotten lately.
I didn't sleep well yesterday because I was so angry at my "BFF" who has frankly become just a friend if not just an acquaintance lately. Her BFF owes me 20 bucks (which I never expect to see to tell the truth) and she has my season 2 of Angel and my first issue of Scott Pilgrim. Apparently she can't find either of them even though I've been asking for them back for about a month now (Angel for more like 4 months). I'm going to have to go over to her parents house during the day and search it for my own shit because she refuses to do so ever since she moved out.
Frankly if come tomorrow I cant find my DVD's and comic I'm going to ask her to replace them because this is ridiculous. I dont want to start yelling at her about it (even though I really really want to) but it's put this huge hamper on our "friendship" because she obviously doesn't give a shit because its my stuff. She's more worried about her $5 pair of sunglasses than my stuff (over $60 there).
Plus whenever we make plans (and I plan in advance so its not like I surprise her with stuff I want to do with her) she always has something else going on even though she doesn't make those plans until about 2 hours before we're supposed to be doing our thing.
I feel like a second-rate friend anymore and I don't like it. You shouldn't treat people you "like" this way.
UGH! Today is just not a good day frankly.
I don't know why liking myself and not judging my self worth based on my weight is something that apparently only I can do. Its one thing to not feel bad about yourself when no one mentions anything but its a lot harder to not start hating myself when people start commenting on how heavy I've gotten lately.
I didn't sleep well yesterday because I was so angry at my "BFF" who has frankly become just a friend if not just an acquaintance lately. Her BFF owes me 20 bucks (which I never expect to see to tell the truth) and she has my season 2 of Angel and my first issue of Scott Pilgrim. Apparently she can't find either of them even though I've been asking for them back for about a month now (Angel for more like 4 months). I'm going to have to go over to her parents house during the day and search it for my own shit because she refuses to do so ever since she moved out.
Frankly if come tomorrow I cant find my DVD's and comic I'm going to ask her to replace them because this is ridiculous. I dont want to start yelling at her about it (even though I really really want to) but it's put this huge hamper on our "friendship" because she obviously doesn't give a shit because its my stuff. She's more worried about her $5 pair of sunglasses than my stuff (over $60 there).
Plus whenever we make plans (and I plan in advance so its not like I surprise her with stuff I want to do with her) she always has something else going on even though she doesn't make those plans until about 2 hours before we're supposed to be doing our thing.
I feel like a second-rate friend anymore and I don't like it. You shouldn't treat people you "like" this way.
UGH! Today is just not a good day frankly.