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To my sweet Pogue,
I'm going to give it to you straight. If I had known that today would have been my last day with you, I would have called in.
The idea of going to sleep is a scary thing, because for the past five years, you've curled up with me, keeping me warm when I forgot to replace the batteries in my AC/Heater remote, and kept me company when I thought the dark might close in around me. The idea of waking up is even scarier. I can't imagine opening my eyes tomorrow morning and not going through the motions... Making sure the toilet seat is down, you've got enough food to last you while I'm at work, and filling your bowl with water as much as I could because I know you drink a lot of it during the day.
I wonder...will I wake up tomorrow and look for you? Will I wake up tomorrow and think tonight was all some horrible nightmare.
Most people don't understand. You weren't just a dog. You were my friend. My companion. You listened to me despite the fact that you probably had no idea what I was saying. You kept me company when I was feeling lonely. You were the best kind of friend a girl could have.
If I had known that I would be standing over a hole in the ground, watching my dad cover you with dirt tonight, I would have stayed home. Just so I could have a few more hours, at least.
I know I wasn't the best owner. I could have done a million things different, and I'll always wonder if there was anything I could have done.
You're better now, though. No more pain, no more suffering. Peace.
I love you my sweet boy.
I'm going to give it to you straight. If I had known that today would have been my last day with you, I would have called in.
The idea of going to sleep is a scary thing, because for the past five years, you've curled up with me, keeping me warm when I forgot to replace the batteries in my AC/Heater remote, and kept me company when I thought the dark might close in around me. The idea of waking up is even scarier. I can't imagine opening my eyes tomorrow morning and not going through the motions... Making sure the toilet seat is down, you've got enough food to last you while I'm at work, and filling your bowl with water as much as I could because I know you drink a lot of it during the day.
I wonder...will I wake up tomorrow and look for you? Will I wake up tomorrow and think tonight was all some horrible nightmare.
Most people don't understand. You weren't just a dog. You were my friend. My companion. You listened to me despite the fact that you probably had no idea what I was saying. You kept me company when I was feeling lonely. You were the best kind of friend a girl could have.
If I had known that I would be standing over a hole in the ground, watching my dad cover you with dirt tonight, I would have stayed home. Just so I could have a few more hours, at least.
I know I wasn't the best owner. I could have done a million things different, and I'll always wonder if there was anything I could have done.
You're better now, though. No more pain, no more suffering. Peace.
I love you my sweet boy.