The Ship Hasn't Went Down, Yet...Still Fighting...
My ship hasn't sunk yet. I feel bad for Rodney...sitting there in jail. He did sound a lot better last time I spoke to him. I guess he has his pre-trial tomorrow. I don't know what to think. I know he wouldn't hit Boo on purpose. But now Jen is stepping up and told Nels that she saw it happen. CPS called me this-morning to see how Boo is doing. The woman seems like she doesn't even believe the charges. I told her that Boo is still saying Rodney hit her. She sounded disappointed. I asked if it was ok to be in contact with Rodney, since I am probably the only friend he has. I told her that I want to be there for him while he is in jail. She said she has no problem with that. She also doesn't see why Rodney couldn't come over to the house when he gets out, as long as he is not living here and as long as I am here. Carrie is going to start watching the girls for me. So, that feels better, I am not so lost and frustrated in that department. Financially, I dont know what is going to happen. Nels has started paying child support again, so that will help with about half of the income this household lost. Eric's boss says Eric loves me a lot and he won't desert me or the girls. I think if he was going to leave, he would have done it by now. We cleaned the porch off on Monday. I told him not to break any boxes down because we will be moving soon since I cant afford to stay here. He broke the boxes down anyway, so maybe that was a statement to me that we will be staying here. It was really hard having to tell Rodney that he can't come back here. I think he expected to get out of jail and come back here like everything was normal.
Right now I am home sick from work. I was fine...was doing my work and then it hit me...HARD! It feels like my stomach is in a vice. I was doubled over at work. Ended up puking twice. Kathy told Jessie to send me home after she was done cleaning pumps because I didn't look very good. I thought there for a while that I was going to end up puking right on the counter. I was in so much pain at that point that I couldnt waddle myself to the bathroom.
One of my 'friends' drove me home last night. I had to fight him off me. He wasn't taking no for an answer. I finally got him away from me and out of here. I dont think I ever want to see him again. It really pisses me off when I tell people that I am with Eric and they act like it is no big deal that I have a man. I hear so many people saying 'what he doesn't know wont hurt him.' It will hurt ME! What about me????? I love Eric and I have enough respect for him to let him know when someone is treating me wrong. I don't mean harm by telling him, but I want him to know if someone is coming on to me.
Well, I am going to go lay down before I get sick again. TTYL
Right now I am home sick from work. I was fine...was doing my work and then it hit me...HARD! It feels like my stomach is in a vice. I was doubled over at work. Ended up puking twice. Kathy told Jessie to send me home after she was done cleaning pumps because I didn't look very good. I thought there for a while that I was going to end up puking right on the counter. I was in so much pain at that point that I couldnt waddle myself to the bathroom.
One of my 'friends' drove me home last night. I had to fight him off me. He wasn't taking no for an answer. I finally got him away from me and out of here. I dont think I ever want to see him again. It really pisses me off when I tell people that I am with Eric and they act like it is no big deal that I have a man. I hear so many people saying 'what he doesn't know wont hurt him.' It will hurt ME! What about me????? I love Eric and I have enough respect for him to let him know when someone is treating me wrong. I don't mean harm by telling him, but I want him to know if someone is coming on to me.
Well, I am going to go lay down before I get sick again. TTYL