[TM: When in your life did you feel the most alone?]
“She’s nothing.”
Harth has just died. Erin blames me. Which is right, it was my fault.
I took him grabbin’. I was stupid. I took him straight to a waiting lurk and got him killed.
The crunch of his throat under its teeth. I’m never going to forget that. I dream that sound every single night. I dream the look on its face, him weakly asking me for help, and me falling the distance to the ground, all the time, hearing it chugging at his blood.
And Erin blames me. I’m the strong one, the fast one. The one that can fight. The one that should have protected him. And I didn’t. He’s dead. And it’s my fault.
She can’t look at me, knowing I’ve got our brother killed. I can’t look at her without knowing that I got our brother killed. She comes to visit me in the hospital and has nothing to say to me other than:
“You took him on a grab and you got our brother killed.” Which is true, but all I want is her to hold me, to forgive me, to tell me it’s going to be all right. She just leaves.
I never go home after being let out.
In one night I’ve lost my brother and my sister. My entire family.
I’ve never felt so alone.
Muse: Melaka Fray
fandom: Joss Whedon's Fray
Word count: 224
Harth has just died. Erin blames me. Which is right, it was my fault.
I took him grabbin’. I was stupid. I took him straight to a waiting lurk and got him killed.
The crunch of his throat under its teeth. I’m never going to forget that. I dream that sound every single night. I dream the look on its face, him weakly asking me for help, and me falling the distance to the ground, all the time, hearing it chugging at his blood.
And Erin blames me. I’m the strong one, the fast one. The one that can fight. The one that should have protected him. And I didn’t. He’s dead. And it’s my fault.
She can’t look at me, knowing I’ve got our brother killed. I can’t look at her without knowing that I got our brother killed. She comes to visit me in the hospital and has nothing to say to me other than:
“You took him on a grab and you got our brother killed.” Which is true, but all I want is her to hold me, to forgive me, to tell me it’s going to be all right. She just leaves.
I never go home after being let out.
In one night I’ve lost my brother and my sister. My entire family.
I’ve never felt so alone.
Muse: Melaka Fray
fandom: Joss Whedon's Fray
Word count: 224