Chapters of Life.
Its seems that my life is divided in chapters that dictate not only the events in my life, but that ideas that I form and the moods that I find myself trapped in. Ever since high school ended, which was the High School chapter btw lol) I have been in a constant easy life style. I was optimistic and enjoyed what life had to offer. I was easy going and went from a crappy two year college to a decent four year college. Life was looking up. But sadly, because it was looking up it didn't see that wall it slammed into around the end of last fall semester. Life steadily disintegrate around me. I lost my whole world. This was a very sad break down. College became a far off reality, no good job in sight, friends scarce, and love got tired of me. I knew the last one was an end I knew was coming. So its impact wasn't AS crippling as the first time love was a childish and immature illusion. So I sustained minimal damage but it was enough to leave me with nothing. Then I got a po-dunk job that barely gives me any cash flow and I still have to rely on my parents.
That was a chapter that dictated the rise and fall of Jared's content and easy-going lifestyle. I heard from somewhere that praying that God would never allow life to be easy was a good idea or might keep the person who prayed it would never loose the value of the things they earn. I'm not sure why someone would ask for something that is already there. Asking for something thats already there seems to be a little redundant. Life was never meant to be a basket of roses where everything looks and smells beautiful and has had all the thorns removed. I was thinking about that at work today and I realized that the only logical thing to do after falling over is to get back up and try again. Even though try #2 isn't going to be any easier than try #1 and each try after. Life is hard regardless of how many prayers you pray or how many falls you take. Its never an easy, completely enjoyable experience.
So the next chapter of Jared's life can be easily explained by using a Jedi as an example. Forgive me the nerdy reference, but I assure you it has a meaning. The history of the Jedi is a long one with many falls in which the Sith conquers the galaxy and the Jedi become virtually non-existent, but as years progress the Sith destroys it's own empire and the Jedi come back from the brink of disaster. This part of my life is the end of the Sith and the rise of the Jedi. Even though growing discontent in the future coupled with nasty events and inner moral confusion with the world surrounding them will throw the Jedi apart to opposite ends of the galaxy, I'll still get up and try again. Perimeter for a year and then to Georgia Tech hopefully. My College GPA is more than adequate to get in. I just need about 5 to 10 more semester credits. Though getting all my math classes out of the way at Perimeter would help me avoid the difficult math at Georgia Tech. Hence the year period at Perimeter. This will also give me time to upgrade my computer. Hopefully this fresh start will see the Jedi through to a long and mildly content span of time. Even though a Sith conquest is unavoidable. May the Force be with me.
I also find myself to be in a very unfeeling state. I don't really get depressed or happy anymore. I just operate. I'm slowly freezing I guess you can say. Its not intentional. It just started happening the other day. Things just stopped worrying me and I started thinking about random stuff and reading Star Wars Comics.
I want to be a Wookie Jedi like Chewbacca's nephew Lobacca or the Wookie Jedi Master Tyvokka.
That was a chapter that dictated the rise and fall of Jared's content and easy-going lifestyle. I heard from somewhere that praying that God would never allow life to be easy was a good idea or might keep the person who prayed it would never loose the value of the things they earn. I'm not sure why someone would ask for something that is already there. Asking for something thats already there seems to be a little redundant. Life was never meant to be a basket of roses where everything looks and smells beautiful and has had all the thorns removed. I was thinking about that at work today and I realized that the only logical thing to do after falling over is to get back up and try again. Even though try #2 isn't going to be any easier than try #1 and each try after. Life is hard regardless of how many prayers you pray or how many falls you take. Its never an easy, completely enjoyable experience.
So the next chapter of Jared's life can be easily explained by using a Jedi as an example. Forgive me the nerdy reference, but I assure you it has a meaning. The history of the Jedi is a long one with many falls in which the Sith conquers the galaxy and the Jedi become virtually non-existent, but as years progress the Sith destroys it's own empire and the Jedi come back from the brink of disaster. This part of my life is the end of the Sith and the rise of the Jedi. Even though growing discontent in the future coupled with nasty events and inner moral confusion with the world surrounding them will throw the Jedi apart to opposite ends of the galaxy, I'll still get up and try again. Perimeter for a year and then to Georgia Tech hopefully. My College GPA is more than adequate to get in. I just need about 5 to 10 more semester credits. Though getting all my math classes out of the way at Perimeter would help me avoid the difficult math at Georgia Tech. Hence the year period at Perimeter. This will also give me time to upgrade my computer. Hopefully this fresh start will see the Jedi through to a long and mildly content span of time. Even though a Sith conquest is unavoidable. May the Force be with me.
I also find myself to be in a very unfeeling state. I don't really get depressed or happy anymore. I just operate. I'm slowly freezing I guess you can say. Its not intentional. It just started happening the other day. Things just stopped worrying me and I started thinking about random stuff and reading Star Wars Comics.
I want to be a Wookie Jedi like Chewbacca's nephew Lobacca or the Wookie Jedi Master Tyvokka.