The Human Help Desk
I spent a semester working for the Salem High School Computer Help Desk. I had fun helping people and I enjoyed figuring out there problems. The whole playing video games between tasks was awesome as well. lol. It was during that time I figured that helping people was something I enjoyed doing. Whether its listening to a friends problems or fixing their computer. Its hard to find people who will do that. I'm not saying I will drop everything I am doing to help someone. I'm not that good a person. I don't even consider myself a good person now that I think about it, but thats neither here nor there. I try to be there for people, is what I'm trying to say. But for some reason is hard for me to find people who will stand with me. Its like they all go their own way. They won't turn and help me out. I have one friend like that but he's in Vidalia lol. So I'm sunk. Everyone else seems to turn on my like I don't matter. I know this post reeks of angst but I feel like typing it so bear with me.
Distance can bring people apart in more ways than one. But I've realized their are different types of distance. There is the physical distance where people are seperated geographically and then there is the distance that seperates people mentally. Points of view and such. We can all get past one distance or another if we find the person to be worth it. Whether it be a friend or a significant other. As luck would have it (bad luck by the way) I have found myself seperated from most everyone. From my friend here in town that I hang out with all the time I find myself seperated mentally. The other people important in my life I find myself either physically seperated, mentally seperated, or both. And there is nothing I can really do about. Thats probably the most frustrating about the whole ordeal. I don't have a job even though I'm trying and thus no money. I can't visit people or hang out unless the person is willing to travel to me. Some people don't even want to hang out with me or don't have the time to hang out with me.
For the first time in a while I find myself cornered. With no way to fight it. I can't force people to do anything. Its not me. I like giving people options. Sometimes the things they decide to do keeps me from hanging out with them because I don't want to be around it. Thats the bad part about options. But I'm not sure what to do. Its like all I can do it sit back and hope for the tide to turn before I drown. I could be a hermit. Lock myself up in my room and never come out again but thats not very fun. There is no life in that.
I might start volunteering at church. Even though I'm not a big fan of Howard Greer, I feel like I might be able to find some satisfaction in working around the church. Some people aren't a big fan of church, but I find the atmosphere to be more welcoming than most and the purpose for which they are there is a shared one. Everyone has their own agenda but at least they CLAIM to be there for the right purpose even if that isn't the reason they are there.
No one looks out for each other anymore. Once you're out of high school its kill or be killed in the business world because the world is about money not about people. Maybe I can change that for me. Maybe I can look out for people where ever I get a job. Even if they don't look out for me. That seems like the only way its ever going to get started. There are probably a select few that look out for others in the business world and the only way to help is to join the ranks.
I need to stop worrying about the things I can't change and focus on the things I can change. Thats the conclusion I came to after typing all that. In retrospect it feels like I took a bunch of topics and just gave them a paragraph each lol. This is all just me thinking, if any of you who read this has advice or an opinion I'd be glad to hear. Try to keep it away from the negative side though but if you feel you must then knock yourself out.
Distance can bring people apart in more ways than one. But I've realized their are different types of distance. There is the physical distance where people are seperated geographically and then there is the distance that seperates people mentally. Points of view and such. We can all get past one distance or another if we find the person to be worth it. Whether it be a friend or a significant other. As luck would have it (bad luck by the way) I have found myself seperated from most everyone. From my friend here in town that I hang out with all the time I find myself seperated mentally. The other people important in my life I find myself either physically seperated, mentally seperated, or both. And there is nothing I can really do about. Thats probably the most frustrating about the whole ordeal. I don't have a job even though I'm trying and thus no money. I can't visit people or hang out unless the person is willing to travel to me. Some people don't even want to hang out with me or don't have the time to hang out with me.
For the first time in a while I find myself cornered. With no way to fight it. I can't force people to do anything. Its not me. I like giving people options. Sometimes the things they decide to do keeps me from hanging out with them because I don't want to be around it. Thats the bad part about options. But I'm not sure what to do. Its like all I can do it sit back and hope for the tide to turn before I drown. I could be a hermit. Lock myself up in my room and never come out again but thats not very fun. There is no life in that.
I might start volunteering at church. Even though I'm not a big fan of Howard Greer, I feel like I might be able to find some satisfaction in working around the church. Some people aren't a big fan of church, but I find the atmosphere to be more welcoming than most and the purpose for which they are there is a shared one. Everyone has their own agenda but at least they CLAIM to be there for the right purpose even if that isn't the reason they are there.
No one looks out for each other anymore. Once you're out of high school its kill or be killed in the business world because the world is about money not about people. Maybe I can change that for me. Maybe I can look out for people where ever I get a job. Even if they don't look out for me. That seems like the only way its ever going to get started. There are probably a select few that look out for others in the business world and the only way to help is to join the ranks.
I need to stop worrying about the things I can't change and focus on the things I can change. Thats the conclusion I came to after typing all that. In retrospect it feels like I took a bunch of topics and just gave them a paragraph each lol. This is all just me thinking, if any of you who read this has advice or an opinion I'd be glad to hear. Try to keep it away from the negative side though but if you feel you must then knock yourself out.