Postives out way the Negative

Apr 14, 2003 01:51

DO you ever think that everything you do in life you seem to fuck up? Well pretty much all of mine came back to kick me in the ass today. It first started this morning right when I was getting off work. I was looking out the second floor window as I saw a girl being taken out on a stretcher from to much alcohol. You might ask what does this have to do with me, well I had some trouble in my past and I to was pretty close to this point. Just like the girl, I was told I looked quite dead one time to. Puking the night away is no fun either is sitting in a shower to make sure you stay awake. The second thing happened later in the day when I thought life was going better and my stupid mouth wasn’t getting me in trouble. But we had this long conversation on how you should watch what you say to people. During the whole conversation I felt like shit. I knew and I’m pretty sure ever one else knew I had been talking shit about some one. I had a long talk a while back to this person and told them how sorry I was. But as you can see it was brought back up and I feel so bad for what I did. I felt like everyone was pointing fingers and looking at me with faces of discuss. It was like the whole thing was happening all over again but instead of just one person it was all of them. Later that night I went out with some friends and even seemed like I wasn’t even a part of them any more and I had no clue why. They did all this stuff together and I was never invited. Is because I’m not cool to hang out with or am I just a third wheel? I can go on and on about the bad but the bad doesn’t do me any good. All I got now is to look forward to the positive things that can from this. Well I guess as I think about that I will leave you with this quote “Forgiveness does not mean you Forget what happens. It just moves it on to another day.”
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